i'm just me...

I really needed tonight. And this vibe. And these talks. And my best friends in the entire fucking world.

I just wrote two pages in my paper journal and I wanna keep going here. I feel so ALIVE tonight. Fuck. I love this feeling; live for it. This is peak happiness, right here. Being with the people who know all of your stories. The people whose words resound in your head on a daily basis, words from 15 years ago said out of love and friendship that you never forgot them.

-The 1000th mile was beautiful today- winding down the road next to a river, sunroof open, a good song playing, in one of the quaintest tiny towns in the sad valley.

(Lined up the camera at the stoplight on mile 998 and took this without looking because there was literally nowhere to pull over.)

-I’m on day 3 of husband traveling, season 2 of Call the Midwife on Netflix, & I think book 3 or 4 of the week. Reading 2 series at once, & I’m invested.

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aymielia = yourdreamsarebeautiful, or emersoncoe

Which one?

Something as simple as the view from the window that’s over my reading nook makes me feel so delighted with my choices in life. Like this is my new fave spot in the house and it’s just me living my simple childhood dreams right now. Like, I can sit here with my kindle and feel this breeze and I can see TWO(!) cute dogs out my window (ones the neighbors dog haha).

I woke up today thinking about what to do about the wildflower bullshit in the first pic. Husband wants to mow it down and till, but I want to see the blooms through the fall. Besides, I’m in the middle of slowly pulling out the green bullshit seen in the second pic. My goal for next year: both tilled and new flowers planted in those beds.

Aymie. Not the original spelling, but one I made up when I was 14. Now it feels more “me” than the original.

Amy. Legal. The name itself grew on my mom, a person who watches the news religiously, after a young girl was kidnapped in our area during my moms pregnancy. The coverage went on for weeks before the girl was found murdered, but damn if my mom thought the girls name was beautiful.