Long Overdue Update
So... I've been gone for a time.
It's been a year now since I had my spinal fusion. In that time I've had to reteach myself how to walk properly (still have bad days) and I have also been diagnosed with degenerative disc disease.
I had to sit with that for a long time and some days I still sit with it and get mired down intensely.
Depression has been a bitch and a half, as I just sort of have stages like the tide going in and out. Where I'll be ok and then suddenly its like the life is drained right out of me and I am utterly joyless.
To say its been hard is an understatement.
But I'm still here.
Figuring out this... new normal for myself. Day in and day out.
I have a new therapist who suggested I try to return to the things that brought me happiness, even in its smallest capacity.
....
and it would be the ship "BloodyMary" that gets me off my ass to start making Gif Fics again after 3 years.
I've missed this space, this community, you guys.
I've been disconnected from myself for far too long.
So here I am
Trying to reconnect with those parts of myself that I forgot - those little joys that gave me a feeling of accomplishment, happiness, laughter.... purpose.
I'm still figuring things out
Slowly
But at least I have hope for myself now
Something I honestly felt without for far too long.
Sorry for the downer of a post, just needed to get the thoughts out of my brain and into the void as it were.
Anyhoo
miss y'all
much love
B
