Jelly.

All of this below was sparked by Butter telling me to “just.chill”. And as much as I loathe the sound of those words when heated, they are so true.I had to really check myself. I wanted to write something or say something in hopes that he sees this or that, but this is all healing for me. And if he never talks to me again, I’ll know why. But I want him to know I’m sorry, ashamed, but above all that, grateful and adore him all the more for this...opportunity. And I love him even more for it, regardless of what happens next. He should also know that i’m proud of him. Happy Valentine’s Day......

Listen, I love, love. I love spreading love but this morning I wasn't feeling it. All weekend. All week. I spiraled so low that I was bold enough to try and take someone down with me. In all my complaining, I didn't ONCE consider Jesus. (Hebrews 12:1-13‪#‎verseaday‬) How dare I?! See, boom, just like that JC came right in the clutch and told me to get my life together. I have looked in the mirror at myself, unrecognizable for far too long. There are people surrounding me that foster me into a place to see the love I should have for myself and then purge into this world. Love yourself and people just as much as you yearn to be loved.