Screaming Beans

I don’t know how many of you actually read my personal post. Or how many of you have stuck around while I’ve been on and off hiatus for the last year because of college. But recently blog running has been very hard.

I still fully intent to write here but I write for fun, I write to make myself feel better and I don’t want to make it an obligation. I will fill out request when I feel good and will be posting personal fic writing from my free time.

I’ve been down with one chronic illness since 2015/2016 and have just been told I may have another long term health problem after struggling with symptoms for the last few months.

Bygones

After knowing all the information she had on them it was hard for the other agents to feel safe around Fade much less trust her. She was abrasive. A strong code of honor and a strict unspoken set of rules for how she interacted with people. Rough around the edges more than even agents like Breach or Viper, both of which would occasionally yield to making things around base less stressful. Fade however never budged or wavered in intensity.

But like every agent before her the previous agents became accustomed to her presence. And little by little the trust in her left the battlefield and returned back to base with them. Her obvious insomnia and constant drinking of coffee. They way she looked up to agents like Viper or Cypher. How she’d always be available in the living room at any odd hours of the night to provide some wordless companionship after nightmares or spiraling thoughts. Little things that reviled her kindness like easing off of angry agents when she could sense fear fueling them or pulling people away after close calls for coffee.

Her frequent visits to Sage as when she did finally sleep she thrashed and reacted so viscerally to her own nightmares she would wake up with dark bruises, bleeding scratches, and her own powers leaving bite marks around her body and ringing in her ears. How she’d bring the other night owls drinks and always be up making breakfast with the early risers. The special interest she has in Omen and Astra as their fears are eldritch and incomprehensible to her.

These are personal ground rules of how I portray the agents in my work.

Horny on Main:

Chamber

Omen

Jett

Reyna

Yoru

Some of these are obvious but there’s two I feel like I really need to explain and that’s Omen and Yoru. They aren’t “horny on main” so to say as they aren’t outwardly flirty or easy to thirst after others. However they both B line to that sort of thing to avoid emotional connection. For Omen this is even more rare because people are scared to get close but I see him doing that at any chance to avoid emotional venerability.

Massive Dorks:

Phoenix

Killjoy

Raze

Skye

Emotional, kind, and probably a massive nerd over something. Phoenix under his cool facade is a sweet guy who probably fumbles around certain social interactions. He really strikes me as a closet nerdy kid who tries too hard to be cool. Killjoy is a classic dork, nerdy and over confident but very sweet. Her and Skye have massive ‘makes breakfast for everyone’ vibes. Raze is loud proud and super nice, in the dork category because she’s probably unbearably cheesy.

Darker than they seem:

Astra

Sage

Brim

Chamber

Sova

They have all SEEN THINGS maybe it was a glimpse across the mirror into a darker world. Maybe it was the horrors of war. The deepness of the void. The realization that you can’t save everyone. Each of these characters has been through shit we have no idea about and carry a heavy burden with them. Exactly what that burden is we may never know, but it’s far more than the kind of cheerful personas should reasonably be held regardless.

Kinder than they seem:

Reyna

Cypher

Omen

Breach

Viper

Fade

When you run in such a dangerous line of work you must be tough, unyielding, strike fear into your enemies. Maybe that’s why this category holds so many characters. Each of them have a soft spot. Some moral line they won’t cross even if they tell you they would. A heist doesn’t need lives taken, the helpless must be protected, the dead avenged, families left out of the crossfire. Omen will call himself a monster but he mourns for the unfortunate souls of their mirror selves. Fade has one of the strongest set of morals in the protocol, fear is the best way to ward off evil. They’re all soft, but they’ll take that to their grave.

Didn’t sign up for this shit:

Phoenix

Jett

Yoru

Neon

Bright young radiants who had either no idea or no choice. Far more normal and knowledgeable of current norms and social interaction. These are normal young adults who got Peter Parker-ed into saving the world. They probably hang out a lot and talk about all they miss since most of the others weren’t super normal before joining the protocol. Not to say they haven’t made friends.

Actually kinda baby:

Kay/o

Killjoy

Neon

I don’t mean baby like smol and sweet or whatever but like- “Oh fuck they don’t actually know how to deal with this huh?”. Killjoy despite all her genius has a hard time dealing with the protocol, combat, and knowing her inventions have done so much harm. Neon is constantly struggling with her powers and has a lot of issues with the violence that she’s capable of. Kay/o is the opposite, he knows that he should be a weapon. A machine without feelings but he is feeling, he’s scared for his allies getting hurt feels care for the other agents. They’re all just so out of their depth.

Other things I will die on the hill of:

Phoenix is a total romantic and crushes fast thankfully he can shake them fast as well.

Yoru may or may not be into Skye but weather he likes her or not he really looks up to her and finds her more respectable than the leaders of the protocol.

Cypher accidentally flirts with people because he’s very smooth and teasing, also partial to touching people just a tiny bit like their hand or shoulder.

Chamber on the other hand flirts with everyone on purpose and gets hit by people actually flirting back like a brick.

Chamber is also fucking blind. (He put a scope on a hand gun)

Astra is much more of an eldritch creature than Omen, he may walk the rifts but she knows things no mortal should know. Astra looks into the void and the void greets her like an old friend.

Viper is a nebulous age. No one is exactly sure how old she is other than 35+ everything else is a guess they’ll never ask and only Brim and Omen probably know.

Neon is surprisingly one of the least plagued by mental anguish. She’s just well adjusted and has good rational for all she does and sees. Very mentally sturdy.

Kay/o is developing emotions and becoming a real boy™️ and will not acknowledge it until he absolutely has to.

(Raze playlist has a breakup song about a girl sung by a girl so I choose to believe she’s a wlw Icon)

Raze x fem!reader (NSFW)

It’s totally cool if not! Feel free to delete this :)))

(The funniest thing is that the image was “blurred for sensitive content” He ships it kinda but also seems like Sombra would annoy him a lot)

Supportive Sigma

(Y/N) was not technically a part of Talon and it was a blessing. As much as Siebren would like to spend time more time with her but to get wrapped up in all this would be a curse. No (y/n) worked for one of the many normal companies Talon had under their thumb through strong arming their finances. They met through some research, unfortunately the more research that Talon had ordered her and her team in for a certain annoying hacker took notice. It was no secret that Sombra wanted to know everything about everyone who so much as vaguely entered her proximity. Being protective of the young woman he quickly began to notice these new interactions between (y/n) and Sombra and how it seemed to bother her.

Omen x Sova Solmate AU

Read on Ao3

She has lost people. Many before this. If she had to loose him why does he get to hide?

Perhaps Fade hates Cypher so much for what he has that she doesn’t. It didn’t matter how far away she stayed from her family they died regardless of their relation to her. While Amir has his darling Nora and his sweet child and he won’t get near them. Too afraid of what may happen were they linked back to him.

Maybe he found out what happened on one of these “other worlds”.

She resents him. His paranoia and spineless nature. Why does he get to have it all when he hides from them and some freak accident took her loved ones away from her. What she would give to see her mother, her father, her sisters. Her uncle freshly taken from her. How is it fair? HOW IS IT FAIR?

But he is kind. He passes by her at the smallest hours of the morning and brings her a cup of coffee after he has filled his own. They exchange small little jabs of personal information about their less liked agents. He is charming, full of fatherly advice and a calm real laugh when she can get it out of him.

How is it fair?

Such a Difference

Chamber fell in love with you as the kind and cool headed person he was introduced to. Crossing across each other in his trade it was rare to come across such a sweet soul.

300 Followes baybee

Fuck yeah concrete

I’ll probably make an event in one week because finals will be done so ready up your typing fingers we’re having a

Familiarity

Omen knows what it’s like to loose everything in an instant. He can no longer be around people without being completely covered which still makes him look suspicious. When someone he loves goes through the same thing its heart wrenching. Even though he’s been through it before he still has no idea how to help.

(Sorry I’ve been zooted for so long I loved the take overs though.)

Back Home

Sova always had what he’d seen in Siberia hanging over his shoulders. It was no surprise when Valorant came searching for help he offered. That left you and his grandmother home worried sick waiting for any contact that came by.

Jealous Chamber

Chamber, as someone who is very flirty as a personality, isn’t super upset by flirty behavior from his partner around with other people.

However it doesn’t mean he appreciates other people initiating things with them. He tends to get a little hostile.

Weather it’s as light as asserting a little dominance or full on threats he does not take kindly to people actively trying to take his partner