Han

you could spend forever trying to convince someone of something but in the end people see what they want to see when they are ready to see it. it may take losing you for them to realize you were all they ever wanted. it may take you dying for them to realize it was you the whole fucking time. it may take them finding someone new but still wishing it was you. it may take 10 years or 15 or 20 but eventually we all see what was meant to be seen. i just wonder if he’ll ever understand that i can never utter into the words how much love i have for him but maybe eventually he will see it and understand that even with time you never forget your first boyfriend because he usually fucks it up for you with the rest but you never forget your first love because its beautiful you fall into them, you’re whole body and soul falls for them, all their flaws arent even flaws and you just want them and only them. but the saddest part is we usually dont spend the rest of our lives loving our first love who you could literally swear destroyed you in the most beautiful way.

You don’t know what true love feels like until someone rips your heart out and is left to die