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Celestia didn’t know why she ended up at the park but something was pulling her there , so here she was . She was looking around she had only been back in the states of not long . “Its hard to be happy all the time , i mean it all depends on what going on in the person’s life really”

“i don’t exactly see it that way. but then again, my ability makes me and those around me happy.” she replied to celestia. “so an aura of happiness pretty much radiates off of me most of them time.”

bree was scared, the last thing she remembered was being in a clearing, that family riley had told her about were there… The Cullens, they were there and so were these other vampires clad in black cloaks. Then there was pain and all of a sudden she was waking up here in this new place. the smells were a lot, she never had fully learned to control her hunger when she was a newborn, so she was thankful there weren’t many humans in the park today. she jumped at the sudden voice turning to face what must have been another vampire. she thought about their comment for a moment. “i guess so… but are we really alive?” she asked looking over at the blonde.

she looked over at the young vampire next to her and didyme could sense that she had also been brought back to life like didyme had. it was nice for didyme to meet someone who had gone through what she had gone through too. she felt like no one could understand what she was going through since they hadn’t gone through it like her, but maybe this little vampire could. “i count anything where i’m not gone forever as alive. i mean, it’s hard, my husband has been without me for thousands of years and i don’t really want to be around him for now, my brother was the one to kill and feels no remorse for it, and i don’t really know what to do with my life. but it’s better than being dead in my opinion, maybe someday i’ll find a place where i belong.”

Caius, never one to be taken by surprise, allowed for a brief display of well kept emotion to play out upon his face. Red eyes flared wide, lips parting around a coy smile as his hands rose to brush along the underside of his chin, in thought. She looked the same more or less, though Caius felt that the new wave turn of 21st century fashion did not suit her well. He would have to tell her, some time, that Didyme had looked better in a vestal robe than in pants.

Smirking, Caius tilted his head, gaze travelling along the familiar plains of her face “Didyme.” he had not said her name in that long, so far from his thoughts she had been. It was interesting though, his tongue rolling the letters in a way he remembered well. “-you did little to interest me when you were alive, though now, a ghost, you may actually get a hold of my attention for once,” He chuckled and stepped forward, his stare piercing as a needle. “You…are a ghost little one, yes?”

while the world has changed in the years that the vampire had been dead, it seemed like most of the volturi hadn’t changed in that time. and while she hoped that they would in the time that she had been gone since she saw them going down a terrible and dark path, one she never wanted to be a part of, which was part of the reason she wanted to leave the coven. she wasn’t a cruel and cold person like the rest of them and she wanted to get away from that before she turned into one. 

“not surprising, i don’t think anyone interests you unless they share your desire to watch the world burn.” she replied to caius. “unfortunately to burst your bubble, i am not a ghost. technically not alive since i’m a vampire, but not a ghost, at least not that i know of, can’t do anything different than when i was alive last.”

        he raised a brow in curiosity when she asked if she could ask him a more serious question. it was rare that anyone dare ask him for his genuine opinion. if chelsea stopped her manipulation, would he leave? he paused, giving it some genuine thought before answering. ❝ probably, ❞ he answered at first, running a hand through his hair. ❝ part of me has resigned myself to the fact that i am stuck in this family forever until i am destroyed or chelsea is. it’s not as… tragic as it once was. but then i give it proper thought and realize how unhappy i am with it all, and would gladly give my spot to someone that wants it more. so i think yes, i would. why do you ask? ❞

“how do you see this as a family? a family never has to force you to be a part of it against your will.” she replied to marcus. “while i don’t see the lamias as my family if i was given a choice between them and the volturi, i’d choose them since they never forced me to be with them.” she added. “because, how is it that the coven that is in charge only has the power because most of their members are forced to be a part of it.” she said. “like shouldn’t that be a sign that the volturi shouldn’t be in charge?”

alice had seen the vampire breaking the very small law, in fact one of the few visions she had since the volturi had arrived in denali. she didn’t believe someone could even realize it was a rule. “oh please.” alice rolled her eyes at alec. she had multiple run ins with the volturi member that now rarely was she scared of his power. “you know for someone who is all about keeping the vampire world a secret, you have no problem using your power in public.”

“well as you see, i was enforcing our laws with someone who was breaking them.” he replied to alice. “also, i can hear humans approaching, so i make sure that i’m done using my ability by the time they get enough close enough to figure out what’s going on.” the vampire addded.

        marcus rolled his eyes. ❝ aro is not your only superior. and where is that little girlfriend of yours? you’re so much more tolerable if she’s around. ❞ god, why was he even trying. alec was always a nuisance and marcus just ignored him, but maybe that was the problem – not stepping in had only encouraged him.  

“he is the only superior i care to listen to.” the vampire replied to marcus with a smirk. alec knew he could do things like this because aro wouldn’t harm alec because of his ability. “and obviously not here as you can tell. and don’t bring her up either.” the vampire snapped. elly was someone alec would protect as hard as possible. “and how about you go of and pout for the rest of time, only thing you are useful for.”

        he shrugged a little. ❝ well… we are both vampires. that makes me a soulless monster that kills humans for food. you’re not exactly unique in that sentiment. you don’t have to just… be alone. it’s not in your nature, at least it shouldn’t be. ❞ what she said about love and happiness not being strong, it struck an odd chord with him. he remembered something similar being said by carlisle cullen. that man’s power was compassion, he built the strongest coven on earth out of nothing but love. perhaps he should point her in that direction. ❝ didyme, love and happiness are both attainable. they may be lost now, but you will find them again. you had to have been brought back for a reason – otherwise i’m not sure why this would’ve happened. perhaps that reason was to correct aro’s poor judgement. perhaps you are stronger than him, and that’s why he killed you. ❞ gazing down at this poor, sad creature, he knew that things would always be different. they couldn’t go back to the way they were, but that didn’t mean they couldn’t forge a new path for themselves. what good was an eternity of staying in the same place? it was his turn to place his hand on her cheek. ❝ both of us are going to be alright, do you hear me? i may not be your mate anymore, but… but i am your friend. and i will help you find your happiness. i’ll help you right the wrongs that the world has made against you. i’ve decided it’s the same as letting you go, in a way. i’m freeing my heart of your supposed manipulation, and thus making the both of us free… of aro. ❞ he was the monster here. not her. 

“the thing is though, it’s never been in my nature to even hurt a fly. but i have to do it to survive and even that has been so hard for me.” she explained to marcus. “being alone is why i need to be... for now... maybe in a decade or a century that may change or maybe it won’t. but i just can’t get close to people like i could before.” she also knew she would need to do everything she could to keep her power locked inside of her even if it hurt since doing so took away her own happiness since that was the only way for her not to use her power. “i’m not stronger than my brother marcus, i never was. while he could kill me again without a second thought, i could not do the same to him. i’m weak, i’ve always have been and always will be.” she admitted. “and i highly doubt i was brought back for any reason other than to suffer because if i was brought back for any other reason, then the force would’ve made me forget how i died.” she said. she pulled away again, she couldn’t handle any of this, being around him, feeling everything she did. “i don’t want you to be my friend, i want you to forget i ever even existed.” she blurted out honestly. “i wish i could reverse time and make it so you never knew me, it’s better for everyone that way.” it was how didyme truly felt about herself, that she only caused trouble. for a second she let her power come out, she wanted to make marcus feel happiness for at least a second, hoping it would help him before the vampire ran off.

        he squeezed his eyes shut, feeling her hand on his cheek. ❝ i don’t want to think that loving you was all just… a craving, and nothing more. i should believe you were more than that, shouldn’t i? ❞ maybe the concept of love truly was lost on him. now that he thought of it, did he even know what it was supposed to feel like? did he know what love was? ❝ i- i think so, i think – of course i wanted to make you happy, of course i loved you, i… i don’t remember a time where i didn’t love you. ❞ slowly he opened his eyes, taking in the sight of the girl he thought he’d never see again. ❝ how cruel of me. i cannot love you, and i cannot let you go. the only thing i know about myself is that i missed you. it appears we both have to start over. ❞ his hand gently wrapped around her wrist, slowly pulling it down. ❝ i need you to stop thinking of yourself like you’re some kind of soulless monster. i may never be happy again, but that’s fine. i don’t need to be happy. you, on the other hand, need to be happy. it’s… who you are. you are a happy girl, and this… all of this is just wrong. you need to find what happiness is supposed to be, and give it back to yourself. ❞

“no you shouldn’t marcus. i’m anything more to anyone. i mean, if i didn’t even have an ability you and i never would’ve met since i would be even less useful to aro.” she said to him. “i thought at some point that you did love me, that it wasn’t my power doing it for you. and when i did i was killed not long after, i feel like it might’ve been the universe telling me the truth, that i’m not meant to be loved. my own power makes not just you happy but me too, the difference is when i don’t use my ability, i don’t feel different about people. i still care and love greatly for those close, i don’t know if the same can be said about others.” she said. “you need to let me go marcus, it’s the only way that you can be happy, just forget i ever existed.” she replied. “i’m a vampire marcus, i’m a soulless monster. i kill humans for food, i take away a loved one someone every time i need to feed, someone with a soul doesn’t do that.” she replied. “it’s not who i am.. not anymore. happiness... it just leds to pain.. and it’s all just me being naive. i grew up being told stories about how love and happiness is stronger than any force in the world, but it’s not... or maybe it is and those who bring it to the world aren’t meant to ever be happy themselves...”