Itβs been a few hours, youβve just been hanging there. Youβve been quiet, too quiet. Usually thereβs music playing, or your foot steps could be heard. But today, youβre quiet. Your little sister, who doesnβt normally come to greet you because you lock yourself away, decides to see what youβre doing. She assumes youβre taking a nap, or doing some homework quietly. She runs up the stairs, eager to see, but she comes to an immediate halt. Youβre not doing your homework, nor taking a nap. Your music isnβt playing and you arenβt walking around. Youβre hanging there, completely still, now just like her. At this moment, her whole world shatters. Everything she has ever known, looked up to, loved, is hanging there by a thread. At this moment, her life has been changed forever. At this moment, she wishes she was hanging with you.
Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say βFinally, theyβre gone.β No, they will not say βIβm happy they did that.β No, they will not say βI never loved them anyways.β They will die. Their hearts will break. They will hurt, more than you ever could. They will cry, scream, and break down. Theyβll believe itβs all just a dream, praying to wake up. Except, they wonβt feel that for a few seconds, or a few days, not weeks, nor months. They will feel that until the day they die. Everyday will be hell. Theyβll think of you ever second. Theyβll hate themselves for not being able to help or save you. Theyβll wish they could die too. Theyβll want to give up, just to be with you. They wonβt be ever be happy again. They wonβt smile. They wonβt go back to their daily routine. Theyβll die every time they walk past your room, or see a picture of you, or think of a memory with you. Theyβll think, but stay quiet. Theyβll visit your grave, feeling a knife go through their chest every time. And every morning when they wake up, no matter how long itβs been, theyβll wake up to thinking theyβll see you, only to be let down once again. And every night, they will cry themselves to sleep, because even though they refuse to admit it, know youβre gone forever.
Before you decide to take your life, think of your family, burying you. Yes, your own mother and father are planning your funeral. Itβs supposed to be the other way around, but itβs not. Theyβll have to call the cops, sign a death certificate, pick out clothing, buy a tomb stone, a casket, pick out flower arrangements, and more; All for their childβs funeral. The morning of your funeral, everyone who loves you is wearing black. Tears are streaming down their face, while their heart is breaking. Everyone who you thought didnβt need you, or didnβt care, are waiting in line to see you. They arenβt waiting in line at a party, or a graduation, or at a wedding reception. Theyβre waiting to see you, hands folded, lifeless, in a casket.
Before you decide to take your life, think of everyone you will be hurting. Donβt you dare say no one, because absolutely everyone will be affected. Your grandparents, wonβt have a grandchild anymore. Your parents, wonβt have a child anymore. Your brother or sister, wonβt have a sibling anymore. Your pet, wonβt have an owner anymore. That person you sit next to in class, wonβt feel your presence anymore. Your teacher, wonβt have a student anymore. That time your grandparents told you no, will haunt them forever, thinking it is their fault, that you are now dead. That time your parents yelled at you, will haunt them forever, thinking if they didnβt yell at you, you would still be here. That time your sibling said they hated you, will hate themselves, because they believe you would still be alive if they said they loved you instead. Those kids who made you feel bad, will wish they were dead too, because if they just smiled at you instead, you would be here. That teacher that said you didnβt meet her expectations, will feel like a failure, because you would still be here, if she believed in you. Everyone, who has ever been in your presence, will hurt, because if they showed you they cared, you would still be here.
Before you decide to take your life, think. Donβt just think of yourself, think of the consequences for everyone else. No oneβs life will be the same again. That person who God made specially for you, wonβt have you. That happiness that was waiting for you, will never show again. Before you decide to take your life, realize that you may be ending your pain, but youβll be starting a lifetime of everyone elses.
If you are feeling alone, and think that suicide is the only way out:
My ask is open, and Iβm always here. Iβll never judge you. Iβll try to help you.
If you are thinking of taking your life, call:
1-800-784-2433
1-800-SUICIDE
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This is what keeps me alive. For every one in my life.
I struggle a lot with depression and suicidal thoughts. Even though most of this isnβt true for me (only real family connection is my mom, but that is enough) this story is so powerful and it helps. I saved the post to come back to next time I have a hard night. This is really important for everyone to read. If you feel like you donβt have anyone, friends, family, pets, coworkers, teachers, fellow students, you have me. I will care even if we have never talked or interacted at all.















