I want to tell a story...
It was the summer of 2015. I was on a holiday to France with my family, to a campsite in France, the same one as always. My friend introduced me to another friend of hers -let’s just call him John- and we started talking, swimming, etc. One day, we were swimming in the pool together. Since John is a really tall person, he easily picked me up -bridal style-, and he would carry me around the pool. We ended up hugging, and I kept feeling butterflies in my stomach, I really liked him. To my surprise, he kissed me, in the sunlight, in public. We became a couple, and I was so happy, the happiest I had ever been. But after the holidays, I only saw John about once a month, because we lived an our away from eachother, and we were both not old enough to drive a car. I was happy, but when I was with him, I already missed him, if you get what I mean. We were almost 5 months together when we both broke up with eachother, on the phone, two days before valentines day. I was okay with it then. I moved on. After John, I was in a relationship with two other people (not at the same time), but both those relationships ended with me not really liking that person anymore. I didn’t understand how, or why, and I felt really really guilty about that. By that time, I learned that he had a new girlfriend, someone I know and like. A little while ago, I went to the swimmingpool with my little sister. I was chasing her, and swam past a couple that looked very similar to John and his girlfriend, and it struck me like lightning. I can’t give away my heart if someone still has it. I am still in love with John. I hate it. I can’t say goodbye, because I’m never gonna see him again, and I am so envious of his girlfriend and I hate it so bad. What do I do? I am in pain all the time. It hurts so bad. What do I do?
oh poor isa
