If I had a world of my own.

After a long day.

After a hot day.

That summer breeze that just hits you at the most perfect, unexpected time.

The past few days, my mental exhaustion hit full capacity. But this afternoon I read one of my favorite books... and this passage REALLY hit me.

“I remember the velvet, other-wordly softness of your newborn body, your wide open eyes that came firm with the knowing that now there would be only after you, that from now on everything I am would be tied to the simple truth that you are.

You are.

You are, and because you are, I will be something other than the girl I was. My fate, from the moment of your birth and with all of my heart, is tied to the fact of you. It’s a beautiful truth- one that heals, and bends, and breaks, and challenges, one that I have raged against and clung to and been grateful for with a depth I couldn’t imagine before you. You are, and because you are, I am altered. You are, and because you are, I am yours.”

This resonated with me SO much.

Because being a stay at home mom is SO hard.

You feel isolated.

You feel lost.

You feel like you don’t even know yourself anymore.

Some days are longer than you can imagine.

But you also get to spend precious and limited bonding time with your babies, while their babies. Because the days really are long, but before you know it. You go from newborn, to an almost 10 month old, in the blink of an eye.