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turn off that cocteau twins and the cure and turn on some funk before you kill yourself

i keep spending money. i should be killed

cats are so naturally skilled at Writhing In Sunbeam. i wish i had even a fraction of this talent but instead i just have all these bones

Thinking abt nicaise, thinking about fics where nicaise is Laurent’s charge/ward/in his care. Thinking about how many of those fics they don’t specify how that came to be and the fact that I appreciate that. Thinking about them. Thinking about Laurent as a parental figure to him, sure, but thinking about Damen being the first man who sees him as a child and nothing else. Not as a politicial pawn and way of becoming closer to power, not as a sexual object, not as his responsibility and duty, just, this is nicaise. He’s my boyfriend’s kid. Idk what to do with kids so usually we play Mario cart and eat junk food. Laurent doesn’t really see nicaise as a kid, he sees nicaise as an equal, which is good but also not what nicaise needs. I like Damen being that for him. Damen being the first safe man outside Laurent. I just want to see everyone in cap pri heal and live happily ever after