Why 17, December, 2017 changes NOTHING for me...
I’ve been on tumblr for years, but always understood it for what it was: A way to get off without much effort. I never took it more seriously than that. And yet, even I found myself making content for this place for a time. I spent a lot of time making a ode to Valentina Nappi called, “Just a Whore” (her exact words, not mine). But, after that video got taken down I seriously said FUCK THIS PLACE. I continued, but much like a resentful wife who was only waiting for the ten year mark before she cashed her chips in, I did it with the end in mind.
And the end has finally come. I understand the plight of those who invested time and energy into this place, made a portion of their business connected to this place, found a fan base on this place, etc. Truly. But personally I couldn’t wait for the feminism that permeated every other aspect of American society to finally spread it’s rancid attention to this place. This place has ALWAYS been the home of feminists engaging in magical thinking and I always wondered how that could exist here AND extreme maleness (women getting fucked and loving it, interracial porn, race play, BDSM, etc.; basically, porn that was all about the cock; your cock that gets hard at whatever it gets hard at, and doesn’t really care what the world thinks of it). This is simply chickens coming home to roost.
Tumblr has been bombing my emails every few weeks to let me know that it’s taken yet another one of my videos down for whatever arbitrary reason (It didn’t ever allow porn, apparently, despite the fact that most of my porn is from official porn sites who advertise on this place, like pornhub and evil angel) and threatening that if it continued, that they’d shut my account down, and I wouldn’t want that, now would i? Fuck this place.
What will I miss from this place? Precious little, actually. I never derived a cent from this place nor a sense of self or pride. I started here thinking that this place was unique, but after going to Chaturbate found that most of the “amateur” porn that I was consuming was the intellectual property of real FUCKING people who were struggling to pay the light bill just like the rest of us. I came here thinking the professional porn was unique but most of that is either new porn that I haven’t gotten around to yet or old school porn that I vaguely remember. Tumblr has been good at reminding me of my first years watching porn, of porn stars that came and left whose names I couldn’t remember, for reminding me that I LOVE russian women, as all the women I want to have children with invariably turn out to be russian; ALWAYS. Or colombian, but that’s a story that’ll never be told. Besides that I got the occasional ACTUAL amateur porn that isn’t on pornhub, and for those rare occasions where I can peer into the intimate moments, the kiss on the forehead, the pack on the cheek, I WILL miss this place. Other than that, this place can rot.
