Bangtan Pocket

I don’t understand guys....Well one in particular. Me and this one guy have been friends for a while. He has confessed to me but also said he doesn’t want to hurt me. for a years after that we have talked on and off and when he comes down we go on small dates. Well last year he decided to full on ghost me and next thing I know he is posting pictures of ultrasounds and baby pictures.... I didn’t really care about this, I mean yes it hurt my feelings but at the same time it’s not like we are dating or anything. What annoyed me the most was when he messaged me out of the blue and basically told me to ignore him and I don’t deserve him. Bonus annoying points he was messaging me about that crap and one day he popped out of no where and greeted me and my mom like nothing happened and he’s been in my state for 5 months and never once told me. I am trying my best to get over, and he definitely is making that easy for me. I don’t think I’m going to ever date and I’m 27...

This year started off great. My family and I moved to a new place. We live in a quite area surrounded by trees and nature. The first week of living there my cousin came down and visited. We went to the mall a couple days before he left back up north. On the way home we were followed by some truck. While I was driving they were trying to cut in front of me and they weren’t paying attention and almost hit us, and for some odd reason they thought it was a good enough excuse to follow us. Not long after that someone tries to break into our home. I thought it could be the same guy but it wasn’t this guy was taller and skinner and seemed younger, I didn’t really get a good look of his face. I was by myself with my 5 year old niece! It was awful. She was able to fall asleep while I was stressing out so much but had to cover it up to not scare her. I did call the police and of course they thought I was making it up. Well they tried to break in a couple more times through out the night and of course police couldn’t do anything without proof. We now have cameras and barely have to deal with it anymore.  Around the end of April I got into a pretty bad accident. My car was totaled. A old guy decided to pull out right in front of me. Luckily no horrible wounds just some cuts and bruises.

Thanks to Palaye Royale for relieving some stress. Last year I got to see them live and I was even shoved into Remington. I even got a Picture with Sebastian unfortunately didn’t get to see Emerson after the show. I was exhausted and had a long drive afterwards, but it was still fun. 

There’s already so much going on this year in my life. The friend that I’ve known since we were in dippers decided to turn against me claiming I said some things about her behind her back, and I never did -_-. This came to a whole week of “arguing” in messages. Her and her girlfriend didn’t want to admit that they were in the wrong. The following month I got into a minor car accident (everyone was fine there and so were the cars all came out with barely a scratch), Then tonight I lost a precious pet. I loved her dearly and wish her peace. I hope all this bad luck and stress just soon disappears. There have been positive things but with the stress it doesn’t seem like it. 

It’s been a while since I posted, which I expected, recently I’ve been reconnecting with old friends and a crush of mine. Both of us know of each others feelings and just never act on them, we both have our reasons. I hope you all have a simpler time with love. Anyways Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Holidays, whatever you celebrate I hope you enjoy it.

One of the best views that I just randomly thought of that I've seen was on the beach with no street or city lights. The stars were shining very bright the moon was full and radiated a soft light that was just pure beauty. The water reflecting all of it. I was glad to had my friends witnessing it with me.

I love K-pop and I love meeting new people because of it. I just meet some nice people last night while randomly doing a live video of playing K-pop music and met wonderful people.

So obsessed with this song atm.