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i've never felt insulted when someone insults me maybe because the insult is typically  non-specific or underdeveloped like someone calls me 'a piece of shit' and then they go on to say 'you're a fucking piece of shit' or whatever

like any insult is just *insults*

i feel like if someone says something like that to my face it feels like they're saying it behind my back

i think that is done intentionally as if an insult is a threat to tell or an allusion to a greater group

you can hurl insults arbitrarily or not but they never feel like personal attacks instead just attacks on my relationship to wider group of people

i was recently insulted and i think this is common that the insult contained critical judgements related to myself and my character really apart from the 'exact target'

it's not allright to say 'im sorry' when 'im right' and this has to happen maybe too much so i have to say 'im sorry you feel that way' and it feels wrong when i only want her to know i'm sorry

sorry doesn't mean what it should mean but i say it and feel it so it's confusing and frustrating to feel guilty and right and blamed

i want to say sorry in a really good way that also says you should be more kind to me and i should be more kind to you regardless and maybe get past guilt and shame in ambiguous situations

my sense of guilt would not necessarily be connected to my sense of fault maybe and i don't know what to do with guilt but i feel like it should be used in some way

feeling guilty yet not at fault undermines my sense of self really mostly when someone is telling me i'm wrong but i don't know if i'm being arrogant in that

IVE ONLY KNOWN SIX PEOPLE

when you meet someone new what happens

probably