Absolutely No filter.

I feel lonely. I know I'm not alone, I'm not by myself, I know God is with me and I know the Holy Spirit is near. But I feel lonely, and sad. I'm not sure why or what to do to fix this feeling but I genuinely am sad. I'm disappointed. Hurt. Frustrated. And honestly, jealous. This is low and hard to deal with. For a change I want to not feel so small. I'm sick of not knowing how to change this circumstance. Its irritating to constantly watch other people not struggle in this but here I am always being and begging for scraps. This is sickening and quite frankly tiring. I just want to not feel lonely.

Sabrina

So here I am struggling because the reality is this is my friend. I go to him for nearly everything. And now that this “love” has been professed idk if that will continue to be my friend if what I want and what he wants are not each other in the same way and light. I’m sick of being single and I want someone to hang out with but I don’t want to selfish… And I don’t want to lose my friend.

Sabrina

The heart is not without wounds Most importantly not without holes Have you ever seen someone Known someone Who has all of the missing pieces to your heart And really all you want is the pieces back Ultimately you want them because without them the pieces don't even fit I wouldn't wish that feeling on anyone and I wouldn't deprive myself of those pieces but I can't seem to get them They are out of reach for me And for me I don't want to be without someone I want and need But I don't want to be with someone who wouldn't willingly give me what was to be mine

I needed to know of this long ago

We don't always have the option of pouring our hearts out to the only person who would understand because that would mean telling them the very thing you don't want the to hear... Sometimes you're not strong enough for the blank stare or rejection... Knives to the heart still hurt

I cry tears for your absenteeism I cry for my pain I cry because I can see your face and touch your skin when you are no where near me I shed Tears And I cry when I hear your name I cry when I hear what I think is the sound of your voice I cry when I know that it couldn't possibly be you that I'm hearing that I want you so badly to present that I have dreamt you a reality that brings me to Tears Which I cry when I am asleep I cry and awaken to soaked pillows and glued shut eyes I cry wishing my thoughts of you asleep were what I see when I awaken I cry for the one thing I can't have that catches my breath that causes my shortness of breath and tightens my chest and results in a gasping for air as if I am taking my first breath and all it does is cause me to finally release my Tears So I cry and I whale and I whale and I stare And I cry, at the thought that you and I won't see I cry, because your eyes and mine will never meet I cry for the sound of your thoughts I cry for the sight of your dreams I cry for the sense of reality from your perspective I cry for the sense of life through your line of vision I cry because I won't get you to have you to keep you I am now bound to the distinction that I do not have you I have the imagined version of your existence and as much as I live and I breathe for the chance to call you my own I don't have you where I need and want you most and as I flood life searching for your signal of earthly roam I wonder home, I wonder to myself and retreat to the only place we are allowed to meet and a last I release and for a final time until we meet again I can only ever see you in my Tears

Sabrina says

Sabrina says

It just feels so crappy... What is up with today? I can't say it was a bad day but it wasn't a good one wth?

Guess who's wide awake and hopped up on 5-Hour energy drink??? Luckily all my cakes are out of the oven but what am I gonna do with all of this idle time between now and when I crash??? #bored #hungry #myfoothurts #ImActuallyGettingSleepyTypingThis #sad #mornin

But why? Huh? Why? You don't think it's too late at night for this? How did you get your hair like this #sharpieHairline #HairLaidLikeJadaInShame #HimAndJermaineGetThereHairFromTheSamePlace #whatWasHeThinkin #whywouldhedothat #DidHeThinkThisWasCute #IsThisMascara #itLooksLikeitsGonnaRunIfHeGoOutside #HisHairGonnaBeOnHisShirt #thisIsUgly #stop #lashesOnfleekTho 😳😳😳😳😒

I don't care what anyone says... This is CHILD ABUSE!!!!!! How in the HELL do you let your child get this dang big? I saw his mom and his brother and I'm no don't try me with that "maybe he has a medical issue" BS his ass is too damn big. I'm sorry where is CPS for this? Oh but if you spank your child you can go to jail? Smh this is just sad... Plain ole sad.