My Fitness Journey

Last day on phase 2 vs now, same weight, but look at the change! So important not to get caught up in what the scale says

So excited to see some continual loses! I’m thinking it’s because my metabolism has finally gotten back to normal. I haven’t worked out since like Friday. With Zach not able to make much money finances are very tight. Having to put food budget on the credit card. Had paid off about half that card and now it’s on it’s way back up 😰 love my fitness tracker it’s really helped me keep my calories and nutrition on track. Even when I want to have a drink or eat a tortilla chip I can put it in my tracker and remain mindful and moderate my consumption knowing how much would be appropriate.

(I’m not eating any starch so my snacks I try to encorporate a lot of carbs)

Here’s to a good week 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

CW: 237

I grilled my chicken on high for about 5min flipping every 1-2min. Then diced and mixed with salad and 2T of Dressing!

I use a convection oven at 425 for 15min. For a regular oven I’d do 45 for 10min, but use your best judgement.

So we woke up this morning to figure out that Zach had left the windows open and I didn’t realize and turned the AC on all night. Woke up to find that our cat, Pierce, had pried open the screen to one of said windows and escaped. He is such an escape artist. So Zach had to go to school and he’s normally the one to stay home and search. So I text work and wait 2 HOURS. No sign of pierce, so I know I only have 1 patient at 2 so I decide let’s go in take her and come home and hopefully he’ll be done with his adventure. Get in my car andddd it won’t start. Call work and thankfully I have the best coworkers and we’re working it out but WHAT A MORNING. It’d be fine to stay home today but I need my car to run my errands and shit and Zach is at school alll day. So frustrating!

Woohoo, only 1 more lb till I’m back at my Phase 3 Day 1 Weight and I think I’m almost back stable. It’s been a busy week with having Zachs sister sleeping over but I’ve been working out and keeping my calories at around 1500. Wasn’t able to get groceries knocked out yesterday so going into the day less prepared but totally focused on my goals. Only things left in my fridge were some applesauces I’ll eat for breakfast and some olives I’ll have as a snack. I’ll get some type of salad for lunch and go grocery shopping after work. ✔️✔️✔️

Think I’m going to switch it up and try Jillian Michaels Ab routine or her no trouble zones

Smothered Chicken & Asparagus!

Jillian Michaels Banish Fat Boost Metabolism: 50min High Impact Aerobics

Unsweetened Low Fat Greek Yogurt w Chocolate Sweetdrops topped with Fresh Strawberries

2 kiwi

Friday was the day I found out about losing Matt and it didn’t hit me till about 4am Saturday Morning. Just woke up to such a flood of emotion. Talked to Zach about it on our way to our cruise and it helped. Cried a little and then moved on, he’s always so good at knowing when to listen and when to get my mind off the subject. I woke up early Saturday and ate my normal breakfast. 2 Eggs w Turkey Sausage Peppers and Onion with cheddar. Cold Brew w 1/2&1/2 and Chocolate Sweetdrops. Took a peach and with us and ate it when we got there (it’s a 2 hr drive). So my mother is pretty reserved/traditional and some of the things she doesn’t like are smoking, gambling, and drinking & eating in excess as we have a lot of addiction in my family. She’s so sweet and when we lost our New Orleans trip she got us a Dinner cruise on Victory Casino Cruise. Zach and I immediately knew it was a booze cruise but nothing prepared us for what we arrived to. You get on the boat and it looks like Las Vegas but the cheapest version on the inside the crew clap while you walk on and the girls are, not exaggerating, wearing the Halloween slutty Sailor costume. It’s bottom floor is a cafeteria, the second is slot o mania, third is the main casino and the fourth floor is the stage and outside dolphin bar. Every floor smoking is allowed. I used to smoke cigarettes but know it makes me nauseated so it was rough because even outside they were smoking. We had free drink cards and drinking is free on the casino floor. We went first to get a drink and I had a Red Wine. Then we went to the cafe I loaded up on water. Ate steamed broccoli, roast chicken(no skin), and a salad with oil and vinegar. We went to the casino floor I had another glass of wine (entered all calories into fitness tracker). Played black jack and ended up winning all the money we spent on tips and on blackjack back so ended up spending no money. Started to get nauseous from the cigarette smoke. We headed back around 3 and the band played which was like a knock off nickelback type band. Then a women started POLE DANCING in the middle of all these retirees it was crazy. Got home around 6 and took the animals over to Zachs parents. Ate my normal dinner and ended up only over my 1500 cal by 200. Today I ate the same thing I have been and tmo will get back to Normal tracking. Just needed a day to be “normal”. Worked out tonight and feel good. I haven’t weighed in, think I’ve gained but idk just gotta kee trekkng along.

Found out today that one of my old friends and one of my first “boyfriends” passed away. By “boyfriends” I mean I was obsessed with him. Looking back at the way I acted towards him back then I can definitely see it being the start of my BPD. However, I don’t think his passing would’ve hit me so hard if we hadn’t been speaking recently. He moved to FL a year or so a go and would ask for my boyfriend and I to visit all.the.time. But of course we never had the money or time. Just last weekend we were catching up and he seemed.. down. In middle school he was hands down one of the closest people in my life. Went through hell together with bullying and the beginning of mental illness that I think we were both too young to see. We’d stay up for literal hours just talking about everything. Eventually he grew out of his awkward phase got huge and his bullies became his friends and although we remained friends we were never quite as close. Last I spoke to him he was having issues making friends down here because he didnt trust anyone. He was also telling me about the new gun he bought his dad. Stopped responding to him because I didn’t know what else to say (my boyfriends the gun enthusiast not I) and I wish I just said something, anything. I’m not sure how he passed but knowing his history and where we come from the assumption is drugs. But also knowing Matt drugs or no drugs I have a feeling he was ready, but the people he left behind were not. My heart aches for his closest friends and family. We’ve lost so many friends and classmates to drugs it’s hard to keep track at this point. Feels good to get some of it out of my head because I’m not real good with expressing my emotions. RIP Matt you will forever have left an imprint on my soul...

1 zevia ginger ale