Blank ERRØR

He has so many identities, he burns through them like a pack of cheap cigarettes and it feels good, to never be recognized. It feels safe too, to inspire fear instear of being terrified himself.

But then Ford finds him because if anyone can find Stan, it would be his twin. And he asks him for help. Stan shows up, of course he does. Monster or not, Ford's his weak spot and the only thing he ever wanted was to reunite with him.

When Ford opens the door however, he can't recognize Stan for a second and almost shoots him on sight. But then Stan speaks and Ford would recognize that fucked up voice anywhere so he lowers his crossbow.

He does the full paranoia checkup thing on Stan and he can't settle down because this is Stan, it has to be, but it's also not quite correct and he can't figure out if this is because he's forgotten details of his twin or if it's because this is an imposter. Could Bill even recreate a copy of Stan?

Stan tells him not to worry about it and eventually Ford does, because he has bigger things to worry about so he goes through the whole portal explanation and he guides Stan downstairs to see it.

The moment Stan sees the portal though, that monster part of him awakens and he knows he needs to bail or something terrible will happen. He can feel himself loosing control, the pull of the portal bringing the horrors forward.

Ford is too busy talking to notice. Stan tries to tell him but once Ford has started talking, it's almost impossible to stop him, Stan knows. He's unraveling at the seams though and he tries to step back but his body isn't his own anymore. He feels like a stranger in his own skin, a side effect of his condition he's gotten used to and can usually contain but not now. He thinks he may have started screaming because everything hurts so much, he feels split in half and isn't sure how much of it is literal.

Stanley Pines - GTA 6 version

been thinking about the lil time jump in tots where stan got the chance to put his beanie away and dump his bag somewhere while ford refuses to tell him anything until stan sees the portal

especially when getting to the portal involves a long awkward elevator ride and going through the rest of the lab to get to the portal room

but also stan managing to see and memorise ford's code to the elevator during that said awkward walk... (which the kids and soos only got because j3 has it on one of ford's last pages)

+ stan's hope for their reunion crumbling as they slowly make their way to the hell basement

it also kills me that stan likely had other clothes in his duffle bag but after the portal incident he wore the same clothes for weeks because he was too depressed to bother and only roughly patched up his jacket so people wouldn't see his brand when he's forced to go outside or starve....

it does make me wonder about an au where stan was more of a hermit and never figured out the mystery shack because the townsfolk were less pushy and susan never brought up the idea of tours, meaning stan wouldn't have that reaon to mask all the time but also missing that sense of success/joy in his life.....