New Dawn, New Day

Our first kiss, under the rain...

Her tears of joy when she saw me in that dress...

When she bit my lip and we both blushed...

When she threw away my razors, and said she would help me fight my depression...

All of the times she was there for me when I felt like ending it all...

Waking up every day and seeing a sweet message from her...

When we said we would get married someday...

When we said we would have a house together, adopt many pets, and maybe even a child...

When we said we would get buried next to each other...

I loved her so much... much more than I had ever loved someone before.

It hurts so much to realize she didn't love me as much as I thought she did.

Now she's gone, and her memory haunts me everyday...

I never realized

That when you cried

It meant that you loved me

I thought you only cried when you were mad,

I figured that you only cared when you were sad;

I had no idea that you loved me this much

But I guess that's the fault of the guides you've had in this life

For not teaching you to go after what you want

Do you remember how hard i came after you?

No one taught me that

I just followed my heart more back then

I don't need your excuses For your own pride & your own ego

I don't need shit from you

Because I already let us go

A long

Long time ago.

Didn't you know?

My answer,

Will forever

Be

An enthusiastic, yet subtle: no

Three of Swords.