GiveLoveAchance

When everything was broken The devil hit his second stride But you remember what I told you Someday, I'll need your spine to hide behind For fear of moments stolen I don't wanna say goodnight But I'll still see you in the morning Still know your heart and still know both your eyes

I could have told you 'bout the long nights How no one loves the birds that don't rise So you can tell the heroes go hide My sense of wonder's just a little tired

But if only you could see yourself in my eyes You'd see you shine, you shine I know you'd never leave me behind But I am lost this time Are we destined to burn or will we last the night? I will hold you 'til I hold you right But if only you could see yourself in my eyes You'd see you shine, you shine

So we'll run into the open Keep your hand inside of mine And then when everything is over I hope to think of this as better times The sky got red and swollen I guess I never see the signs There can't be songs for every soldier It can't be solace every time you cry

I could have told you 'bout the long nights

How no one loves the birds that don't rise So you can tell the heroes go hide My sense of wonder's just a little tired

But if only you could see yourself in my eyes You'd see you shine, you shine I know you'd never leave me behind But I am lost this time Are we destined to burn or will we last the night? I will hold you 'til I hold you right But if only you could see yourself in my eyes You'd see you shine, you shine

I was lost 'til I found you Now these songs will hold and hide your name All it was was all about you Since that night, the moon has never seemed the same

I’m pretty certain that I knew who I was before all of this. I was someone before my constant need to give away more and more myself each and every time. And I never gave away pieces of myself, instead giving my entire being. 

There were a few times when, like a drowned person, I would be able catch a break in the waves, a moment when I would be able to grasp for air - only to get sucked back until. 

There are many times, while I’m commuting to and from work, that I have this self discussion/conversation with myself. Call it regrets or introspective struggles but whatever it is, it comes up every so often. It’s not a negative thing don’t get me wrong and it’s not like things in my relationship are going bad. But I find myself thinking about how my life would’ve been different if I stayed with any of my Exs. 

Instead of walking away I chose to be with him.

Instead of getting passed over by another guy, I fought harder.

Instead of allowing my emotions to get the better of me, I held my tongue and calmed down more instead of lashing out.