Good Vibes

I'm really glad I picked up this running hobby as it has been something I wanted to do years ago. This 2023 year has been all about change to become better person and to set goals for myself. I wanted to change my health and fitness lifestyle this year. It has always been a constant battle for me ever since I was in Highschool and throughout the years. Sophomore year was the toughest for me as I wasn't happy with my ideal body image that I became very bulimic. My mom def was suspicious about my weight lost but I was never honest with her about it. ( sorry mom lol) It def got me to that body image I wanted but it wasn't good for me to do. In 2016 I invested myself in CrossFit and I benefited from it as it help show me the way to a good healthy fitness life style. In 2020 the pandemic came and that's just when I stopped caring and let myself go. Probably the worse decision I made as I got older. In early 2023 I went on trip home and I didn't like how I look in any of the photos I took which gave me the drive to get back into fitness. I'm very proud of how far I came and I'm excited to see where this new fitness journey of mine will go.

I prayed for someone like you all my life and I prayed to god to keep you in my life after I first met you. I'm still praying for you

I would like to believe I found my person. This pure hearted person has brought nothing but smiles and laughter into my life. My days used to be a blur and ever since our lives crossed paths my days started to feel real. I pray this is it cause idk if I can handle losing you.

But sometimes I'm doing too much. Maybe I'm just clingy and need to be around someone. Maybe I always been the problem in past relationships. Idk what it is but that's what I feel like. It's sucks cause I overthink and create shitty scenarios.

Two weeks ago I was kicking myself in the ass over dating. It's soo overwhelming at times especially with anxiety. But I met someone who makes me break out of comfort zone. She's pretty , funny and lights up the whole room. I still think about her smile and when imma see her next. I hope we can build each other up and become that couple I dream of. She doesn't know it yet but I think she's amazing.