this is the end.

“It wasn’t one of those endings where he kisses someone else so she takes pills like little kids eat candy and tries to kill herself when he finally comes out and says “I don’t love you anymore” It’s not your mom cleaning your blood or throwing up when you see him on the street It was not deadly It was simply “I’m here on the other side of the country if you need me, try not to need me, my new girlfriend is a light sleeper.””

“So I’m scared of things that haven’t happened yet. you haven’t left but I’m already having a funeral. this isn’t dead but I’ve already picked out a casket. something about the way stars are long gone but we keep wishing on them. something about the dream I had about my ex. something about a sun that explodes and we’ve only got 8 minutes until we burn so please just hold me until this heat wave hits and everything goes white. baby you think we’ve got time but eventually you’ll wake up and see me for me and when I wake up you’ll be gone and you almost fell asleep on the phone and i could’ve said I love you quiet enough so you couldn’t hear but i didn’t. there’s both bravery and cowardice in that.”