Miley felt her legs become limp as the epidural finally started to kick in, soon enough sheâd be fully numb and some of the pain she was feeling would go away. Holding Justinâs hand gently in hers, she rested her head on his chest. Hearing his question, Miley just gave a sigh as she rubbed her thumb over his hand soothingly. âHonestly? Not well at all. Iâm terrified,â she mumbled, her blue eyes glazed over with fresh tears. Focusing her eyes on the ceiling, she hoped the tears wouldnât escape their hold. âAre you okay?â Miley asked him, seeing right through his facade. âYou donât have to pretend to be around me. I get the kids, I shouldnât have reacted the way I did,â she said, the guilt giving her an unpleasant churn in her stomach.Â
Running a free hand over her stomach gently, she couldnât let the thoughts escape her mind. What was going to happen? Would everything be okay? It had to be. The couple stayed in a comfortable silence for a while until she heard the door open and footsteps coming in. Looking over she gave a small smile to the familiar doctor and nurses sheâd seen for all three of her kids. The nurse helped her get comfortable as the doctor checked on her dilation. âYou ready to have a baby?â the woman asked Miley, with a smile. Glancing at Justin, Miley just nodded. âAs ready as Iâll ever be,â she said with a light laugh.Â
The nurses and doctor got Miley into position to push. Grabbing Justinâs hand, she gave a squeeze of reassurance, hoping to reassure herself and him. Pushing her hair out of her face, she waited for the doctor to be ready and got started on her deep breaths, millions of thoughts running through her mind. âGive me a big push, Miley,â the doctor said, looking up at the distressed girl. Pushing as hard as she could, she squeezed her eyes shut and screamed out in pain. She knew the epidural wasnât going to take away all of the pain, but it seemed like it took much more the time before. Feeling a cool rag lightly dab on her face, she squeezed Justinâs hand tightly the few times the doctor told her to push. âSheâs so small but hurts like a bitch,â Miley gasped, tears of pain escaping her eyes.Â
"One last push," said the doctor as she saw the baby girlâs head crowing. Giving one last, long push, Miley felt a release in her body and fell limp onto the hospital bed. "Sheâs here," the doctor said, looking over the baby. Her eyes scrunching when the baby didnât show any sign of reaction or ever open her eyes. "Why isnât she crying?" Miley breathed out, panic filling her body. Checking for a pulse on the baby, the doctor didnât find any and followed the procedures for any baby. Performing the procedures to try and get the babyâs heart beating like it was just minutes ago, she looked up at the parentâs terrified eyes. "Iâm so sorry.. She passed away during birth," the doctor told them watching as tears formed in Mileyâs eyes. "N-no. Youâre lying, sheâs fine, she has to be fine," Miley said, her voice slowly raising until she was screaming, tears pouring out of her eyes. Looking at the small baby in the doctors hands, more tears poured out seeing that her baby wasnât moving, or breathing. Looking up at Justin, her breathing faltered as her eyes moved from him to their baby, her body shaking with tears.Â
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