Hypnotized

Woolen fibers on my sleeves

The sweater which protects me from the cold weather

You're the arrow to my bow

The sea to my shore...

The flakes on my snow...

So, will you wait until I reach the other end of the rainbow?

How do you not make it not reflect in your face?

And just keep it to your self

Bottled up inside

Burning with rage

Frustrating thoughts

Fearing the future

While facing the reality

And that huge lump in your throat

That always forms whenever you ever so badly want to cry

But all the tears have already dried up

Now all that is left is that big lump in your throat which never goes away

For me, it has become habit now

The anger comes out in the form of tears

What else did you need

It's my 1 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Surely everything has changed

From our surroundings to the people surrounding us

From our lifestyle to our routine

From our favourite things to our favourite people

From our brain's capacity to our personality

From our behaviour to our opinions on our future career

Almost everything has changed

But why does it still feel like

If I ever turn back and see everything will still be the same

Why does it still feel like everything will go back to an year ago if i just close my eyes and feel the wind winding up this reality and snap me back to the good old golden days...

It's been an one whole year...

yet it feels like it isn't so far but near...

For my hands to go all numb, red and white

It seems like i was too late to understand that it's no more about climbing

It's about time for balancing

If the world ever decides to give you

Then give it back a little more

And if the world ever gives you less

Then never stop giving it back

Because the world has less of givers

I've always got this gut feeling

For almost everything

I've felt the happiness

I've felt the sadness

I've felt the rain before the pain

And even the belief in finding relief

I know I'm a hopeless believer....

But this time it's the unsettling fear....