ghost thoughts

Concept: Everyone learns what a fake I am, and so I flee from everyone. I can never return but I would never want to. I can find freedom in my solitude.

that avpd feel when a friend has even the tiniest negative opinion about something you like and your stomach immediately sinks, amirite

imm s so sorry, i couldnt ask for help i tried so hard but i couldnt do it, im such a disappointment im so sorry

im not enough im not enough i'll never be enough i don't even have standards anymore when i know i'll just let myself down

I wish i was more than myself. I wish i was a person. But im just me, a void hidden under all these covers, in desperate need of people to see and in desperate need of me to hide. Don’t look at me. See me. I am here. Don’t you dare acknowledge my presence! I am so tired of fighting with myself with no end, no peace and no result.

Concept: i can approach people on my own terms and they understand. i can never bring myself to talk and they understand. i can run and disappear and they understand. I can return without fear because they understand.

concept: i am unobserved at last. no-one thinks of me. no-one laughs. no-one sees. no-one hears. no-one knows. i am forgotten. i am home.

avpd is debilitating, it crushes my soul to know that there are other people who have to go through this as well. it is fear, it is hiding, it is shame. it is so much shame. and there is no one who can help us because we don't know how to ask for help. no one will ever know how much we suffer. the psychological discomfort of avpd, being ashamed of your existence enough to want to stay in hiding, is a secret we all want desperately not to be kept, but are too afraid to tell.