Everyone I come into contact with eventually starts to hate me, and it makes me feel sick.

I'm literally at my breaking point. I can't communicate with anyone I come into contact with, and I can't cope with my trauma anymore. I can't be myself, and I honestly don't know who I am half the time. It makes me feel sick, and I'm exhausted from constantly feeling this way.

Why do I feel so disgusting for wanting attention? Why do I want someone to care about the things I have to say? Why do I always try so hard to impress them? I always just end up running away.

Literally no one knows who I really am or anything about me, and as much as I'd like to put myself out there, I think I'd rather die.

I hate when I really want to talk with certain people, but I'm just so fucking boring that I don't have anything interesting to say, and can't hold a conversation.