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I’M GOING BACK HOME YAYYYY I CAN SEE MY BEST FRIEND I HAVENT SEEN THEM ALL SUMMERRRRRR im gonna take them to get Korean food as soon as my parents let me hang out with them i miss themmmm

i have two pillows, one for ynder my head and the other to curl around so im both hugging it and slotting it between my legs so i can pretend theres someone in my life in can love that way. no nooo im not lonelyyyyy im not sadddd i promisseeee

i don’t even feel human anymore. not in a disassociating way but a “i am so negatively affected by my differences from the majority of people that i might not be one.” and a “i am autistic and am so consistently seen as subhuman that i might not be one.”

genuinely why do i have the craziest fucking lore compared to my siblings like. my best (and only) friend died like a month into starting middle school, im getting bullied so badly i legit got my head bashed into a wall a few months ago, every friend group ive ever been in has broken up, my former best friend dated the ex that threatened to out me as trans to my parents, and the only reason i havent kms is because i want to see how the new season of avm ends. and then my siblings got like. divorced parents and autism. like tf. i got that too why do i have so much more. this isn fair.

If Alan Becker, Flavor Foley, The Crane Wives or any of my favorite Hermits become problematic i will genuinely just explode on the spot