One step.Ā
Ā Ā Two steps.Ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Three Steps.Ā
Floor.
Avery hissed through her teeth as she sank to the concrete, interrupting herself with a high pitched giggle, shaking her head as she accepted her place on the ground.
Pressing her palms into the concrete was a welcome reminder of reality. Sheād been so focused on getting out of her room that looking where she was going wasnāt a priority. The static in her head was too loud.
After staring at her hands for several minutes in an effort to remind herself that she was realĀ and a l i v eĀ Avery pushed herself into a kneeling position and essentially dragged herself to lean against the wall. Her heart was beating like a hummingbirds and her breathing was still far too fast - but she was, for the most part, okay.
Is this real? Is this real? Is this real? Is this r e a l?
āAm I real?ā
Small words, half whispered aloud to no one but the sharp wind and the crushing loneliness, no one to hear her thoughts.
When did it get dark? Was the thought that followed, green eyes looking up to stare at scattered stars. Of course, I started running forever ago.
Silence.
The wind.
Nothingness.
Her heart rate picked up again but instead of letting the fear roll over her she took a deep breath.
Five
Ā Ā Ā Ā things you can see:
Orange boots: duller now, covered in scratches.
Stars: closer now than ever, still impossibly fĀ aĀ r away.
Trees: shadows in the distance, looming, but not ominous.
Doorways: Dislandās doorways had always seemed less inviting but that was probably because people didnāt have to break them down to get through.
Blood: under fingernails - old? new? who knows. Itās just there.
FourĀ
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā things you can touch:
The ground: cold, hard, comforting.
Skin: scabbed knees through ripped skinny jeans, slips, trips and falls.
Brick: old walls leant on for support, rough but solid. Enough.
Leather: an old jacket, work away slightly, still warm when held closely.
Three
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā things you can hear:
Wind: through trees, creaking, groaning, whispering secrets to those willing to listen.
Breathing: breath. From your lungs. Alive, working, awake.
Insects: some buzzing, other chirping, a reminder that life goes on around you.
Two
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā things you can smell:
Grass: freshly cut that day and since rained on, sweet in a sense.
Smoke: cigarette smoke lingering on the jacket clutched tightly to an aching chest.
One
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā thing you can taste:
Blood: salt, copper, sweetness. not old, but new, fresh blood. fresh from gnawing on the inside of chapped lips. but still, a welcome reminder of realness, existing.
Another deep breath to fill her lungs and calm her beating heart.
Avery headed back inside, slowly this time, she didnāt have to go back to Halloweentown if she didnāt want to, didnāt have to stay here either. She paused in the hallway, staring at the door to her door room, left open in her haste.
Here is good. Here is home.
















