And in fact it actually feels..... oddly true and good to make myself known as a person who is sensitive and emotional and thoughtful rather than trying to feign being cool and casual and unaffected. Because if someone don't fw me after that it's like OK well you are missing out on the best thing you have ever encountered in your whole life. Bitch

For me this year really has been about embracing vulnerability and not making myself small, honouring my truth and my desires and embracing that when I move w/ sincerity I waste soooooo much less time wondering how someone feels about me or worrying about what's going to happen next. And I have been learning (slowly) to embrace the rejections that inevitably occur and in truth none of it has left me feeling truly embarrassed because I'm like... I was REAL!

Just once it would be so lovely if wanting the thing so badly meant that it’s destined for you

I feel miffed by the way that I seem to have excessive intuitive capacities when it comes to predicting doom and misfortune, and would like for the scales to be balanced by correctly predicting the dawning of something beautiful and transformative in my world. Why can I always see the train wreck coming but the magical thing always sneaks up on me… maybe I am always too busy staring at the train wreck

Recently went to the club in linen pants and clogs and I felt so Free and also extremely sweaty

I had an excessively romantic first date that made me go insane and simultaneously has gone nowhere for reasons that I logically understand but emotionally DESPISE. Has me feeling like "open your heart to me Bella!!!!"