C'est la vie

Aku 'kan lebih menaruh perhatianku pada masa sekarang, dimana aku ingin membuat banyak memori yang layak engkau kenang saat giliranku menjadi masa lalumu nanti.

Sebab di satu tempat aku mendapati aku tersenyum bak tidak ada yang perlu dikhawatirkan tentang luka kemarin. Namun di tempat lain aku bungkam, membias hati yang perih dengan kedok garis senyum yang membenam.

Kau jangan.

Borderline personality is being called a drama queen for having bigger than life emotions and not being able to restrain them.

Borderline personality is not recognizing a photograph of yourself a week after taking it.

Borderline personality is fully understanding you’re being irrational, clingy, or overbearing, and watching yourself fall further instead of fixing it.

Borderline personality is refusing every kind offer because it could possibly be insincere and you won’t let yourself fall for that again.

Borderline personality is being constantly cautious of what you say so you don’t come off as manipulative, and being a pushover when you don’t want to so no one will think of you in that way.

Borderline personality is not being able to love yourself unless someone else loves you, but never fully believing that they could love you.

Borderline personality is thinking of all the ways you could die, today, at this moment, on a loop every waking moment.