going to read a chapter to try n not cry TBH ! whatever delete later

this is the third time something like this has happened im going to prove them all wrong i can do this i should be here i can do a masters all these people can go fuck themselves

idk during my doctor's appointment i was like yeahhh im really stressed with this thesis and stuff and the doctor was kinda just like 'oh...' the whole time and i was saying that it's a lot and she's like hm yeah... and just had a kind of negative dismissive vibe to it. then near the end she was like yeah good luck with the thesis and if you cant do it that's fine too... like overall just super weird and not optimistic about it. idk i was kinda like why the fuck are you reacting like that to me but k whatever? idk her demeanor really came off being that i cant do it and like more likely than not i wont succeed and doing a masters isnt like the best choice idfk and it's been progressively weighing me down all day and then i thought. now why the fuck is she saying this ok tmi overshare this is the trans health specialist and she's telling me the trans patient that i cant really succeed in this type of thing like oh my fucking god??? let's all die. there's negative floors let's go to hell

ok i cleaned up my desktop crisis over

aaaaaaand both shortcuts have to GO i havent played in months !!!

WHY DO I HAVE 2 TF2 LAUNCHERS ON MY HOMESCREEN

it's like the frequency in 'city of the dead' from the fallout 1 soundtrack which is a lowkey remake of 'self strangulation' by techno animal

im goinb to move on now sorry about that

always the people that get mad when people ask them if theyre queer or the people who have now detransitioned who were casting stones but i shant say that aloud... 💆