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I touched my belly overwhelmed

By what I had been chosen to perform

But then an angel came one day

Told me to kneel down and pray

For unto me a man child would be born

Woe this crazy circumstance

I knew his life deserved a chance

But everybody told me to be smart

"Look at your career, " they said

"Lauryn, baby, use your head"

i had a deep love

a deep love that i can’t get back

a love that hurt me so bad, i thought about closure… this girl had me thinking about bullshit ass “closure”

what am i to do with that? nothing but an excuse, and excuse for pain that i can not excuse for it pained me so deep it’s trauma

i’m traumatized by a friend, a friend i loved so deep. my light in every room, i breathed different knowing you were there, your presence was a joy, but nothing was greater than the black joy you birthed.

i’m hurt you didn’t get to experience my joy, but instead you gave me a day of hate.

i had a deep love though, and that love won’t let me breathe and i’m okay with it. that love was perfect and not even at its peak, that love was omnipresent..

a deep love that i can’t get back

a deep love that doesn’t know where she’s at.. with me.