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You protect me

Shielding me

From scrutiny

By managing

Your insecurities

Indirectly

I

Reap the benefit from

Unspoken

Unacknowledged

Love

Like dances in the wind

Free to flow

I exist

In pursuit

Of me…

While you

Try to find glimpses

And moments of peace

In the rescue

Struggling to

Connect with

Relate to

And discover me

So

Like a fugitive, I remain

Floating in the distance of

Stillness

An abstract reality

Clung to the search

Relentlessly

You’re

Captivated in attempts to apprehend

And decipher,

Like puzzles,

Children and swing sets

I am necessary

But misunderstood

Like pinecones

Esthetically pleasing

Multi-purposed

But cryptic to you

So

You stay stuck

In pursuit

As I

Forever etched in my soul

I swallowed

Now

Drenched

In the possibility of

There’s no escaping

Just your

Sun saturated gaze

The magic switch

To my creativeness

You

Water me

So

My soul yearns

For dreams

And unspoken

Melodies

Overflowing

In your heart

And wed to your bliss

You find me

To be everything

And nothing

Yet

I am the epitome of fulfillment

And wholeness

Companionship

In your heart

And wed to your bliss

You find me

To be everything

And nothing

Yet

I am the epitome of fulfillment

And wholeness

Companionship

The healed and whole

Capable of independence

And

Healthy neediness

Willing to compromise

Apologize

And never lonely

We

Are

The perfect song

A love of

Equity

Genuineness

And blissful

My gaze was kept

Fixed

Upon your shadow

For

What appeared to be hours

Unmoved

Untouched

Unwilling

Merely rooted

In the gravity

To end cycles of fear

Yet

Our love

Channels peace

And our hearts

Beat

To mirrored energy

In sync

But

Damaged

Of never

Adjacent to happily ever after

And maybe

Full of opportunity

Optimism

Fear

And loneliness

I consume it all

And find a way

To

Hovering

Over my heart

Melancholy stalked

He’s silent

So

I’m confused by actions

(the lack thereof)

Yet

He’ll return

Grand gestured

Seeking forgiveness

With skewed perception

Because

Creates illusions

Of power

And

Righteousness

So

He feels I’m weak

And

Emotional

So

I acknowledge

Who he is

I see

The

Contradiction

I

I

Walked away

From something I

Wanted

Something

I’d fight for

And

Just

Two creatives

Who found love

In

A broken space

Yet

Somehow

We created a garden

Of love

That

I trigger you

Heighten

Your insecurities

Highlight

Your deficits

Illustrate your bias

And

All I did

Was be