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February 5th, 2018 - I've never been much of a crier but I'm still sad. Don't get me wrong; I'm so much better then I used to be. But when it comes down to it, I'm still that sad kid from Salinas. I try to not talk about what's caused my pain anymore, a lot of the things that happened made me I am the woman I am today. It doesn't define me anymore but it's still part of me, regardless. Through this period of change, (which I never deal with well) I've come to realize that I've become self conscious about my depression, anxiety and fears and I shouldn't be and never have been. Despite the fact that I am no longer that person, she still existed and she's still apart of me. So I need to love her as much as I love myself now. Although I will always have my dark times, my darkest nights have produced the brightest stars, and I am still alive and shining bright. . . I'm sorry for the silioquy, but if you get one thing out of this: Forgive, trust and love yourself.