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Listra’s heart skipped and she leaned into his kiss softly. This….wow. It was better than she imagined. She never wanted the feeling of his hands on her face, his lips on hers to end.
And then, just as suddenly as he was there, Christian was gone. Listra was left with one hand in the air where it had been halfway up to his face with a sinking feeling in her chest. Oh no.
He had run from her. What had she done wrong? Had she misjudged what she thought she felt from him? Oh God, what if she had ruined everything and now she was going to lose her best friend. As she was spiraling, she looked down and noticed most of Christian’s belongings still beside her on the couch.
Listra scooped his things up with shaky hands and resigned herself to the fact that she had messed their whole relationship up as she stood, head spinning from exhaustion. She forced herself through the house and out onto the street, nearly dragging herself to the spot where she knew Christian always parked as she ignored how her knees felt shaky.
The door to his car was unlocked and she opened it softly. She didn’t say a word as she set his things down on the passenger seat, not looking up at Christian. She had really done it this time. She couldn’t look up. She was already telling herself she had lost her best friend, she was too afraid she might see it confirmed in his expression. The exhaustion and resignation were clear on her face as she wrapped her arms around herself and turned back to the house, stumbling slightly.
The sound of the latch on his car door opening made Christian nearly jump out of his skin, eyes moving to look at Listra, watching her silently place his things beside him and turn to leave. Ugh. This made him want to die. “Lis…” he sighed, getting out of the car and moving to her, wrapping an arm around her waist to steady her. “I… I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to do that. I think Lust was co-piloting or something.” It was an absolute lie, he just didn’t want to ruin things, he wanted her to think it was an accident. “I was so embarrassed I… I’m really sorry.” he repeated, trying his best to help her back into the house, only pausing to get his things from the car and close the doors. “Come on, we have food coming and I know I can’t leave you alone tonight, you’re exhausted, I want to make sure you’re alright.”
This was awful. His whole stomach felt like it was full of concrete. “He’s been out of control lately, as is apparent from what he did earlier tonight.” more lies. “I didn’t even know I’d done it until it was happening.” God why couldn’t you just tell her how you feel you stupid monster? He got her inside, bypassing the couch and deciding to just guide her to her room instead.
She managed to hold it together so long, only the occasional hitched breath giving away how close she was to tears. Sometimes she thought Christian forgot she could sense the emotions of others. He was lying to her. There was so much anxiety, so much guilt...he felt so terrible it nearly made her stomach ache.
By the time they reached her room, she shrugged off his hold and sat down on the edge of her bed, looking at Christian with teary eyes. "Chris.... Stop. Stop lying to me. I-if I misinterpreted and crossed a line.... Just say so." She chuckled softly, wiping tears from her eyes with her sleeve. "I thought...m-maybe my feelings for y-you weren't one sided. But if I got it wrong, just tell me. I'm a grown woman, I'll get over it. I just don't want to lose you."
The tears were coming harder now, a shaky breath the only thing that hinted how close she was to fully breaking down. "Y-you're my best friend...." she managed, staring at her hand as she picked at the loose string on her sleeve. An anxious habit. "I-I don't want to lose y-you over a-a.....stupid misunderstanding a-about feelings..."









