MOVED TO TOTHEZEROS

Wow so this blog is starting to be more psa posts than actual roleplaying, but I swear this is the last one for a while. This one’s really important because it not only concerns this blog, but it concerns my other two fallout blogs @lonenovember and @atomcursed. So the gist of all this is,

I’m going to be moving Nova and Margo to this blog, my multimuse, and changing this into a general multimuse instead of just a Fallout one.

I think it will help me stay positive and distracted with writing to have other fandoms and characters to interact with when my Fallout peeps are busy, not interested, etc. etc. I already have a list of muses I plan on adding here, and I have no intention of removing any of the current muses. The list of muses I’ll be adding can be found under the cut, for those interested. I don’t expect anyone following me currently to stay following me if they don’t want to because of this change. It’s totally cool, and why I’m letting you guys know ahead of time instead of just changing things and hoping you’ll stay. If you do stay, that’s awesome and you’re all more than welcome to interact with the non-fallout muses that will be here as well! Thank you to everyone who has stayed by me so far, it means the world to me, seriously. For now things are going to be kind of dead while I get things set up, but I’ll try and do replies as well to avoid going inactive and losing followers. ♥

Hey everyone. So, this is a post that I’ve never made before, because it’s never really been relevant. But I think now I should, because my life has taken a turn in a way that has made this post relevant.

So, a little information about me. I’m twenty-two, bisexual, and married to someone who is disabled. I’m also in the process of immigrating to Canada to be with the man i’m married to. My days consist of him and I taking care of everything in the house, because his grandfather and mother can’t do anything, due to being blind. I have been depressed and suicidal since the age of thirteen, and have suffered from anxiety for just as long, if not longer. I have never been able to retrieve treatment, medication, or therapy. Before moving here it was because my guardians didn’t believe me, and I was too anxious to do anything on my own. Now, it’s because legally I can’t, not without paying out of pocket, which isn’t an option.

I’m surviving. I love my husband, I haven’t attempted or hurt myself in years. I still want to, daily, but I don’t. However, this means that I am emotionally drained most days. I don’t have the energy to deal with things that upset me. Which is what this post is about.

I’m not going to get into specifics, because I’m not writing this to start fights. I’m writing this to inform people that I do not support nor believe in a lot of the retoric that comes out of Tumblr. If you do, that’s your business. All I ask is that you keep posts involving things like social justice, politics, drama of any kind really, off your blogs. If you can’t for whatever reason, then I ask you to please soft block me, or at the very least, tag it with ‘steph don’t look’. I’ve never had to do this before, because a year ago I would just unfollow and block people without a care, because I was more angry and defiant than anything else. Now I’m just tired. So yes, if you post about the things I mentioned above, not just frequently but I mean at all, I ask that you please at least tag it with what I mentioned above, if you still wish to follow/write with me.

My skype/discord has not, and never will be public. I ask that people do not ask for it, because I don’t want to become close with people only to realise that we don’t mesh outside of roleplay due to too many differences in things that I consider important. It’s just not fair to the other person. I’m here to write and enjoy writing, if I happen to find a few people who I can talk to and relate to along the way, that’s great, but because of my viewpoints, I don’t see that happening really.

So, yes. I hope this is easy to understand, and like I said, I’m not trying to start drama or a fight. I’m tired of both, and I just want to write, because it is one of the very few things in my life that is a comfort for my depression and anxiety.

❛ whatever it is you’re looking for … i’m not it. ❜

❛ books are great, but they don’t hold all the answers. ❜

❛ happy is a kick in the balls waiting to happen. ❜

❛ you got half a life left to live, my friend. ❜

❛ you see, what worries me the most is that you’ve been in a hole so long that it’s become home. ❜

❛ wow. that was sexist, racist, and demeaning all of my abilities all in one sentence. ❜

❛ what time is it? ❜

❛ you brought this on yourself! ❜

❛ don’t you ever say that again. you got that? ❜

❛ you’re not the only ghost in this town. ❜

❛ truth is … i was past caring. ❜

❛ holy shit. ❜

❛ what the hell, why not? ❜

❛ you’re still all heart, huh? ❜

❛ drink? ❜

❛ been flirting with the idea of going full man-bun. ❜

❛ i’ll keep that in mind. ❜

❛ i wanna help, but not if it’s gonna get someone killed. ❜

❛ you think you’re okay and then something just brings it all back. ❜

❛ i don’t know if i would kiss him or slap him. ❜

❛ don’t even think about it. ❜

❛ tonight’s the night you’re gonna die. ❜

❛ never off-duty, huh? ❜

❛ i’m calling the shots now. ❜

❛ you need me! ❜

❛ you always talk this much? ❜

❛ piece of shit. ❜

❛ now all you got is the nightmare. ❜

❛ you want me to tell you it’s okay so that if this all blows up, it won’t be your fault. ❜

❛ you always were good at putting people back together. ❜

❛ i know that it makes it easier for you if you make me the enemy, but i’m not. ❜

❛ you are shitting me. ❜

❛ shit you not. ❜

❛ i dream, i see that guy. ❜

❛ what the hell is it that you do anyways? ❜

❛ hey, you shut your mouth. ❜

❛ you don’t know shit. ❜

❛ looks to me like we’re hiding evidence. ❜

❛ and now you’re closing yourself off, find it hard to trust people. ❜

❛ i’m the best. others will let me down. ❜

❛ i didn’t have a choice. ❜

❛ i could have killed you. ❜

❛ and you don’t find that kinda scary? ❜

❛ why don’t you sit down? ❜

❛ i don’t do partners. ❜

❛ you ever think about, maybe, quality over quantity? ❜

❛ god made me this way for a reason, bro. ❜

❛ i think this is a trap. ❜

❛ i think if we do this, men are gonna die. ❜

❛ you just don’t bleed out, you hear me? ❜

❛ what’d you say? ❜

❛ i cannot let you do that. ❜

❛ god damn it. ❜

❛ the hell is that? ❜

❛ you wanna go up against him/her/them with a pink ruger and no ammo? ❜

❛ grow up. ❜

❛ that’s not happening, alright? not on my watch. ❜

❛ what if we got you a little pair of green tights and a pointy cap with a feather in it? ❜

❛ don’t bother me. ❜

❛ want me to leave? ❜

❛ tough guy, huh? ❜

❛ i’m useless. ❜

❛ did i get anything right? ❜

❛ it was good. i just made it better. ❜

❛ turns out i suck at guitar. ❜

❛ that’s what joe did. don’t be like joe. ❜

❛ what, are you gonna puke? ❜

❛ you sure about this? ❜

❛ it’s nothing. i’m fine. ❜

❛ please don’t do this. ❜

❛ i can’t do this. ❜

❛ pissed off beats scared every time. ❜

❛ what did i do? i got my hands … i got my hands dirty, you piece of shit! ❜

Fallout meme idea if no one’s done it yet (even though that’s highly unlikely):