Ominous Fortune

'Erase everything and make her fucking perfect! Make her love me, make her obsessed with me!' Homelander yelled as you laid on a table with your limbs restrained.

'We can try completely resetting her, but there's no promise she won't remember bits and pieces from her old programming,' one of the men said before Homelander lasered his head off. You gasped and closed your eyes and looked away. He turned to another man.

'Think you can do it?'

'Of course, sir... Yes, we'll reset her and program her to be perfect,' he said as Homelander smiled. He leaned over you and brushed a hand through your hair.

'Say goodbye to your disobedience.'

'I hate you,' you whispered. He chuckled and continued to play with your hair.

'We'll see about that.'

When you woke up again you felt odd. You wanted to feel someone's hand in yours but you weren't sure who's. You felt someone take your hand and opened your eyes.

'Morning, sleeping beauty,' the man said as you looked at him in confusion.

'Where am I?' you whispered.

'You're in the hospital at Vought... You were in an accident,' he said. 'Do you know me, darling? Do you remember?' he asked as he reached up and brushed your hair out of your face.

'You're...my husband,' you whispered as he smiled.

'That's right, sweetheart. I'm your husband, John. Or homelander, but you call me John. You're the only one I let do that,' he said with a small laugh. You smiled fondly and squeezed his hand.

'My hero... The world's hero.'

He chuckled again and kissed your hand. 'I think you're the hero.'

'What happened to me...?'

'Well, being a hero's wife means sometimes people come after you. You went out to go shopping and one of my enemies, my main enemy Billy Butcher... He ran you down with his car,' Homelander said as you looked at him in shock.

'Why didn't he kill me?'

'He tried to, that's when I found you and stopped him. You're safe now, baby. Okay?' he said. You smiled as he kissed your hands again.

You eventually made it back to the penthouse and Homelander made sure you were laying down on the couch. Afterall you had just been in a "serious accident." Homelander placed a glass of water down for you and kissed your forehead.

'I have to go to a meeting, but I'll be right back okay?' he said as you smiled and nodded.

'I'll miss you,' you said as he chuckled and kissed you softly.

'I'll miss you more. Get some rest,' he said before leaving. You smiled and watched him leave before you sighed and closed your eyes.

You woke up when Homelander switched you back on, you slowly sat up and smiled. 'Oh gosh... I think I slept the whole time you were gone,' you said as he smiled.

'Good, you needed rest. How about we make dinner together?'

'No, it's okay I'll make you dinner. You've been working all day,' you said as he smiled and kissed your cheek.

'That would be lovely, sweetheart.'

You stood in the kitchen and began cooking for your husband. You always felt so at home with him, cooking, cleaning and whatever he wanted. You hated the fact that he wasn't even in the room, you felt so alone and afraid without him.

'John...' you called out. He walked into the kitchen and looked at you.

'What's wrong, baby?'

'Sorry, I just needed to see you. I know you were in the other room I was just lonely,' you said as he smiled and stepped closer. He wrapped his arms around you from behind and kissed your neck.

'I'm right here, baby. You can't go a second without me, can you?' he teased as he nuzzled into your neck. You sighed and leaned against him.

'I just really miss you when I can't see you,' you whispered as he smiled wickedly and held you tighter.

'Good, that's how I like it to be,' he whispered as he continued to kiss your neck while you cooked. You felt happy and safe with his arms around you, like it was where you belonged.

Once you'd prepared dinner you sat down with your husband before you paused and looked down at your empty place setting. 'I can't...eat. Can I?' you muttered.

'Not yet, darling. Just because of your medication after the accident,' he said with a smile as he began to eat. You paused and felt like your mind was trying to remember something.

'Why can't I remember my family?' you whispered as your fists clenched beneath the table. Homelander stood up and rushed to your side.

'Hey, it's okay. You went through an accident, your mind is still fuzzy. You...don't have family. You grew up alone, but you have me now, okay? I'm your family,' he said with a smile as he kissed your cheek. You smiled softly and looked at him.

'I'm sorry, everything just feels so weird,' you whispered as he held your face in his hand.

'It's okay, I'm here to help.'

--

The next day Homelander had switched you off when he went to deal with some meetings, when he returned he turned you back on and started kissing you roughly. You leaned back in shock and looked at him.

'Is everything okay?'

'I've had a hard day, I just need you, okay?' he grumbled. You had never seen him this angry. He gripped your hips roughly and pressed you into the couch as you tried to keep up with his aggressive pace.

'J-Just slow down a bit, please,' you whispered as he tore you shirt off. You gasped and looked at him in fear.

'Quiet,' he growled as your mouth automatically shut. You continued to stare at him without being able to say another word. You tried to speak but nothing came out. He tore your pants off and you gripped his arm as he stared into your eyes that were filled with fear.

After what felt like an eternity you laid on the couch while Homelander was in the shower. You were laying on your side staring out the window as you thought about what just happened. Why couldn't you talk all of a sudden? Why was he suddenly so rough? You heard a knock at the door and stood up, forgetting you were still naked. You opened it to see a red haired woman. She stared at you in shock as you glanced down and noticed you were naked. You rushed to the couch and grabbed a blanket to cover yourself with as she stepped inside.

'And who exactly are you?' she asked with her hands on her hips. You went to speak but you could barely even move your mouth. She raised an eyebrow in confusion before you heard the shower turn off. You smiled a little before rushing into the bedroom, hopefully Homelander would come out and speak to the stranger. You got changed into some clothes before you pressed your ear against the door and listened to Homelander.

'Firecracker, how the hell did you get in here?'

'A naked woman who wouldn't speak to me opened the door,' she said.

'Just...ignore her. What the hell do you want?'

You drowned out the rest of their conversation and curled up on the bed. The door opened and you glanced up at Homelander. 'Why did you open the door to her?' he asked. You sat up and went to speak but nothing came out. 'Fucking hell, speak!' he shouted as you flinched.

'I'm sorry, I heard someone at the door and assumed you would want me to handle it. Why are you yelling at me? I'm scared, John,' you whispered. He moved closer and titled your face up to look at him.

'I'm sorry I scared you, okay?'

'The way...we just had sex. I didn't like it,' you whispered. He sighed and looked down at you, he grabbed a device out of his back pocket.

'No, darling. You loved it, didn't you?' he asked as he tweaked a few settings. You closed your eyes and tensed up.

'I...loved it?' you whispered in confusion. You opened your eyes and looked around.

'Of course you did, sweetheart. You love when I'm rough with you because that's what you're good for. Isn't it? You're mine, you do as I say,' he said. You looked up at him and smiled.

'Yes... Yes, of course love. I'm sorry, I've just been a bit off,' you said. He smile triumphantly and kissed you.

'That's alright, you're still recovering.'

--

After a few weeks Homelander had tweaked you enough that you were almost perfect, he didn't mind a few set backs. You stood in the mirror brushing your hair and staring at yourself in the mirror. You placed the brush down and ran your finger down the side of your face. 'Why do I feel so...'

'Sweetheart!' Homelander called out as you smiled. You stared in the mirror as you smiled and realised it was involuntary. You tried to stop smiling, you even tried to move your lips downwards with your fingers but it wouldn't work. Homelander came in and wrapped his arms around you from behind. 'Everything okay?'

'Yes, of course. It's perfect!'

'You look beautiful, are you nervous for your first public debut?' he asked as he pressed a soft kiss to your neck.

'I am a bit... What if people hate me?' you asked as he chuckled.

'Please, that's impossible. Everyone will adore you, sweetheart.'

You were sitting in a chair behind a stage as your husband spoke with people. The red haired woman who had walked into your apartment approached you. You smiled kindly. 'I don't think I ever actually introduced myself. I'm Y/N.'

'Oh, I know who you are. Homelander's lovely wife none of us even knew existed,' she said.

'Oh, it's just that I didn't want to be in the public's eye just yet. I met John...Homelander before he was this big hero,' you said as she looked at you and laughed softly.

'It's okay, I know the truth. He's very honest with me,' she said. You looked at her in confusion.

'The...truth?'

'You know about how his whole childhood and upbringing in a PR stunt. No mother, no father,' she said. You stood up and looked at her with concern in your eyes.

'What are you talking about? He grew up in the suburbs, he has parents,' you whispered.

'Oh, look at that. He didn't tell you? What a shame, I guess he just values me more,' she said with a laugh. She walked away and you stood in stunned silence. Homelander smiled and came over to you.

'What's wrong, sweetheart?'

'Just that woman said...some weird things,' you muttered as he held your face in his hands.

'Listen, that's Firecracker. She's...in love with me, when she found out I had a wife she got jealous and started rumours,' he said. You sighed and glanced at Firecracker to see her watching you.

'She wouldn't hurt me, right?'

If anyone asked Billy if you were his kid he would say something like, "bloody hell, no that kid ain't mine." But if you asked anyone that knew both of you they would all happily agree you were his daughter at this point. A stray teenage supe who the boys rescued a few years ago eventually turned into Billy's daughter, even if he did deny it. After you had snuck out from the base to see a singer who was in town Billy had put you on clean up duty. So, while the boys were out on a mission you were washing the dishes, their clothes, the floors, the bed and everything in between. Your phone began to ring and you picked it up when you saw it was Billy. 'Sup.'

'Hey, kid. I need you to bring a few things to a motel we had to stop at. Not far from the base you can take M.M's bike,' he said. You groaned and rolled your eyes.

'Fine. Text me the list and the location,' you said before hanging up. You grabbed a duffle bag and started loading it with everything Billy had sent you.

"Also pick up some take out on the way, family meal of something." He texted. You sighed and grabbed everything, locked up the base and got on Billy's bike.

You had somehow managed to balance a duffle bag filled with weapons and drugs and a bag of take out on your shoulder while you drove. You made it to the motel and snuck into the room Billy texted you. You stopped when you saw Soldier Boy staring at you. He smiled and stood up. 'Now we're talking,' he said as he moved forward. Billy came out of the bathroom.

'She's off limits,' he warned.

'Here I was thinking you got me a pretty young thing to fuck,' Soldier boy said. You looked at him in disgust and threw the bag to Billy.

'Thanks, love. Take what you want from the food and give the rest to...casanova over there,' he grumbled. You took out a burger and some fries before handing the rest to Soldier boy.

'How old are you, sweetheart?'

'Nineteen, why?'

'It's legal, darling,' he said with a wink.

'Not even if you boiled your cock in fucking detol, cunt,' you said. He stared at you in shock as Billy chuckled.

'That's my girl,' he said as you chuckled.

'What, you two are together?' Soldier Boy asked as you cringed.

'Ew no! He's like...my dad, but don't ever call him that he hates it,' you said as Soldier boy looked you up and down. You rolled your eyes and sat down on the other side of the room to eat.

'You get the cleaning done?' Billy asked as he sat down and stole some of your food.

'Yes, I did... Well, most of it. I didn't finish the dishes because the responsible adult that takes care of me called me to bring him guns and burgers,' you teased. Billy chuckled and rolled his eyes.

'Hey, I'm just giving you a rich upbringing,' he said. You shoved him playfully as Soldier Boy watched and ate the food you had given him. You turned back to Billy.

'So, what are you gonna do about this idiot?' you whispered.

'Don't know yet, love. We'll figure it out, but it's our best bet. You don't let him touch you, alright? You tell me anything he says to you,' Billy said. You smiled softly knowing how protective Billy was.

'Don't worry, I'll cut his dick off if he tries anything.'

--

While Billy and Hughie were working out a plan at the small table you were laying on the bed bored out of your mind. Soldier boy came over and looked down at you with a smirk. 'You got a boyfriend, darling?'

'No, and I don't plan on it,' you grumbled.

'Come on, you're a pretty little thing. You should be out there with a hoard of men,' he said as he looked you up and down.

'I'm gay,' you said. He looked at you in disgust.

'What a fucking waste,' he grumbled before turning around. You suddenly teleported in front of him and crossed your arms.

'You're a supe?' he asked.

'Yep, and I can beat your ass. So, don't be a homophobic cunt.'

'Please, sweetheart. I could snap you in half... In more ways than one,' he said as he stepped forward and put his hand on your hip. You teleported and fell onto the ground behind Billy and Hughie. Billy quickly rushed to you.

'Fuckin hell, luv! What's going on?'

'He was being a cunt and touching me,' you said as he helped you up and wiped away the blood that was dripping down your nose. He looked at soldier boy with a deadly glare and held you tightly.

'I told you to fuckin stay away from her.'

'I was just trying to show her what a man's touch feels like so she stops thinking she's gay. Good little supe you are, teleport twice and your nose starts bleeding, huh?' he teased as you snarled at him. Billy gripped your shoulder.

'Cool it, Y/N. He's not fuckin worth it,' Billy said as Soldier boy chuckled and stepped closer. Billy put you behind him. 'Back off, mate. She's a bloody kid.'

'One that thinks she's fucking gay. She's obviously had no parents if they let her become like this,' he said. Billy looked at him with a dangerous glare.

'Hughie, take Y/N back to the base,' he grumbled. Hughie nodded and held a tissue to your nose. You paused and looked at Billy. 'I'll be alright, kid.'

You sat in the car as Hughie drove, a tissue pressed to your nose. 'You...you don't care that I'm gay, right?'

'Of course not, Y/N. I admire you, you know?' he said as you turned to him.

'Really...? Why?'

'Well, despite the crap you've been through you're still you. You don't care what people think,' Hughie said. You smiled a little.

'Thanks, Hughie... That's actually really sweet. Billy would never care either right?'

'God no, he's morally questionable but he would never care about your sexual preference. He might not say it but...he loves you,' Hughie said. You smiled softly before shoving him playfully.

'Shut up, twink.'

'I wish you'd never learnt that from Maeve.'

--

When Billy returned back to the base he had Soldier Boy with him. You looked at him and Billy sat beside you.

'Don't worry, doll. I had a chat with him. I also won't leave you alone with him,' he whispered. You nodded and smiled a little as you looked at him.

'You don't have an issue with...me being gay, do you?' you whispered nervously. Billy smiled and placed his hand on your shoulder.

'No offence, kid but you liking girls is the least concerning part of our lives,' he said as you chuckled softly and shook your head.

'You're right.'

'Uh... Y/N, I care about you. Okay, kid?' he said. You smiled softly and nodded.

The boys were still getting used to having a supe around the base, let alone one that was a hybrid. Billy didn't mind, he enjoyed having someone that relied on him and sought his affection. What he didn't account for was the fact you would go through a heat because of your canine DNA. He soon realised when he woke up one morning to you in his bed with your legs wrapped around his and shamelessly grinding against him.

'Oi, luv. What the bloody hell are you doing?' he asked as he pulled away. You whined and tried to get closer to him as he realised you were covered in sweat and your cheeks were flushed. 'What's going on?'

'Need...you,' you whispered as you clenched your legs together.

'Bloody hell, you're acting like a dog in... Fuckin hell, darlin. Do you get a bloody heat?' he asked as your dog ears pinned back on your head and you nodded. You whined and nuzzled into his neck while you pressed sloppy and needy kisses to his cool skin. 'Bloody hell, you're burning up.'

'I need you,' you whispered as he felt you starting to grind against his thigh again. You moaned softly at the friction and he sighed.

'Alright, let me help you, darlin. Stay here,' he said as he managed to get out of your grip. He quickly locked the door before returning to the bed. He brought you in for a passionate kiss. It wasn't new, you'd had sex before but he had never seen you like this. Needy and shameless, it was definitely turning him on. You tried to strip his pants off and whimpered. 'Easy, baby girl. Let me,' he said as he managed to take his pants off. He could've sworn you were drooling when he freed his semi hard cock. 'Look at you, sweetheart. Never seen you like this,' he said. You whined and began to kiss him sloppily. He began to strip you off and could feel how hot your skin was.

'Please fuck me, I need to get pregnant,' you whispered as Billy looked at you in shock.

'Yeah, darlin I'll...get you pregnant,' he muttered. He knew full well he couldn't considering he got the snip, but he was willing to pretend while you were like this. You spread your legs once you were naked and began to rub your clit. 'Fuck, baby...'

'Please, please fuck me!' you shouted as Billy quickly covered your mouth.

'Shh, baby. Fuckin hell, the boys will hear you,' he said as you clawed at his body. 'I'm getting there, darlin.' He gave his cock a few pumps before lining up with your hole. 'You need prep, baby?'

'No... No, no prep. I'm ready, please just fuck me,' you begged as he looked down at your flushed face. He nodded and pushed inside you as your eyes rolled back and your back arched.

'Holy fuck, baby... You've never felt this good, fuck you're soaking,' Billy muttered as he felt his cock get even harder.

'Wet for you... Only you,' you whispered in your dazed state. Billy felt drunk off you already, your pussy had never felt this good before and you were there with your fluffy ears begging like a slut.

'That's right, baby. You're only like this for me, huh? You belong to me, darlin. That make me your master?' he asked as he gripped your hips and began to thrust into you. You moaned loudly and he watched your body twitch with pleasure.

'Yes... Yes, Master,' you whispered as Billy felt heat rush through his body. He didn't realise hearing you call him that could be such a tune on. He leaned down and kissed you passionately as you moaned.

'That's right, baby. I'll take good care of you through this. Fuck you so good,' he said as he rutted into you. He chuckled when he saw how dazed you were because of the pleasure. 'My little mutt getting drunk off my cock, huh?' he said as you let out another loud moan. He knew the boys would hear it by now but he was too lost in the moment to care. 'Gonna cum all over me, baby? Show me what a good little mutt you can be,' he said as he felt your pussy clench around him. He was addicted to the feeling of it. He leaned in and kissed your neck as he continued to pump inside you. You clawed at his back and trembled as you screamed out in pleasure. Billy felt your pussy clench him even more as uou orgasmed around him. He gripped the blankets beside you and came inside of you as he gave a few last pumps inside you. He looked down to see you completely blissed out from pleasure. He took his cock out of you and made his way to the bathroom to get you some water and a damp cloth. He came back to see you nuzzling into the blankets and whining softly. 'You back with me, darling?'

'I forgot...how much heats hurt,' you whispered. He placed the cloth and cup down before he climbed into bed and wrapped you up in his arms. You sighed and nuzzled into his neck.

'I'm here to help, sweetheart. You just tell me what you need,' he whispered.

'I need you to stay close and...fuck me whenever the waves hit,' you whispered in embarrassment.

'Now that I can do, baby,' he said. You chuckled softly and he noticed how exhausted you looked. 'Rest, sweetheart.'

--

Billy had left you to rest and was chilling in the main room when Hughie entered. 'Ah, Billy... The other boys elected me to talk to you about your um...morning activities,' Hughie said with a red face.

'Alright, I know we were a bit loud but she's going through a bloody heat,' Billy said as Hughie's face went an even darker shade of red.

'She uh...goes through heats? Like a female dog when they...'

'Fuck anything that moves? Yes, exactly that mate. So, you'll have to excuse however she acts for a while,' he said. The door to his room opened and they glanced up to see you looking hung over and wearing Billy's clothes.

'Hungry,' you whispered as your tail swayed gently behind you.

'I'll get you something to eat,' Hughie said as you shuffled forward and straddled Billy's thighs. He gently rubbed your hips as you nuzzled into him.

'Does it hurt, darlin?' he asked. You whimpered and nuzzled into him.

'Yes... It hurts so much, I hate it,' you whispered as he rubbed your back.

'I'm sorry, baby. I'll do whatever I can to help you,' he whispered as you nodded. Hughie returned with a drink and pizza for you. You smiled a little and thanked him but refused to get off Billy's lap. He chuckled and let you eat on his lap as Hughie sat down and tried to not get embarrassed by your out of character behaviour. Once you'd eaten you were half asleep on Billy as Hughie, Frenchie and himself were talking. They heard you whine and watched as you started to grind against him. Hughie's face went red immediately and Frenchie smirked.

'Ah... I guess that's my que,' Billy said as he lifted you up. You woke up and whined softly in pain. He laid you down in his bed as you began to squirm and rip your clothes off.

'Billy,' you whined out as he reached down and felt your forehead.

'You're burning up again. I'll run the shower,' he said. You whimpered and watched him leave. While he started the shower he could hear you crying out to him. He rushed back in and helped you take the rest of your clothes off.

'Too hot...'

'I know, baby. I'll help you cool down,' he said as he helped you stand up. He guided you into the bathroom as you tried to peel his clothes off. 'Shh, baby. I'm getting there,' he said as he stripped his clothes off. You stepped into the shower and sighed at the cool temperature that cooled your skin down. Billy stepped in behind you and wrapped his arms around you.

'Billy...' you whispered as your body relaxed.

'Is that helping?'

'Yeah...' you whispered in relief as the cool water hit your skin. 'Need you to touch me,' you whispered. Billy kissed your neck softly before reaching down to gently rub between the folds of your pussy. You moaned and leaned back against him.

'That's its, baby...' he whispered in your ear as he held you up.

'Need your cock... Please, Billy.'

'I know, baby. Just making sure you're ready for me,' he said as he turned off the shower once your skin as nice and cool. He gently bent you over until you braced yourself against the tiled wall. 'Good girl, darlin. You tell me if you're too uncomfortable,' he said as you nodded. He leaned over to kiss your bare shoulders softly as he rubbed his cock to make sure he was hard enough. He pushed inside of you and loved the way your pussy tried to practically pull him in further. 'Oh god, sweetheart.'

'Billy...' you moaned out as he gripped your hips and thrusted into you. You felt tears in your eyes at the overwhelming pleasure.

'I've got you, darlin. Gonna take good care of you,' Billy muttered as he moaned and closed his eyes. He couldn't believe how amazing you felt while in heat. He looked at your tail wagging against him and gently tugged it as you let out a loud moan. He chuckled softly and smirked. 'You like your tail being pulled, my little mutt?'

'Mmm...' you mumbled as he chuckled softly and pulled it again. You enjoyed the odd pain it gave you and arched your back more. 'Harder,' you whispered. Billy smirked and gripped your hips roughly before he started fucking you at an even rougher pace. You cried out in pleasure as you felt his cock filling you up just how you needed it. Billy leaned down and bit down on your shoulder as your eyes rolled back. He leaned back and looked at the mark he had left. He nuzzled into your neck as he thrusted his hips against yours. All he could focus on was the addictive feeling of your pussy and the sounds of you moaning filling the bathroom.

'Good girl, good fuckin girl,' Billy growled as he reached down and applied pressure to your clit. You gasped and orgasmed from the small touch as you cried out and trembled. He chuckled and soon groaned loudly when your pussy clenched around him. 'Holy fuck, baby girl! Fucking hell,' he growled as he felt himself cum inside of you again. He let his orgasm travel through his body and made sure to hold you up while he emptied himself inside of you. He glanced down to see you dazed and panting. 'You with me, baby?'

'Mmm...' you mumbled in a blissful state. He chuckled and slowly pulled out before he picked you up in his arms.

Billy had to leave with the other boys for a small mission. They were leaving you in the safe hands of Starlight. You had never met her and you were a little nervous to be around a woman. You were used to just being around all guys, well one guy.

'You must be Y/N,' you snapped out of your thoughts and looked to see her standing in front of you.

'Oh, yes. Yeah, I'm Y/N. It's wonderful to meet you,' you said with a smile.

'You too, you can call me Annie. I wish I could be more entertaining, but there's not much we can do. I guess we could watch TV, Hughie left his DVD stash here,' she said.

--

When the boys returned they found you and Annie curled up on the couch watching movies. You smiled when you saw Billy and sat up.

'Hey! How did it go?'

'The usual, blew some guys heads off and got what we needed,' Billy said.

After the team went their seperate ways you sat with Billy. He noticed your looked a little nervous and deep in thought. 'What's going through your brain, darling?'

'It's Homelander... I feel so betrayed, I mean I have memories of us meeting, our wedding, how kind he was to me, how gentle. Then I was suddenly awake and he was different, he would...call me mommy, b-breastfeed off me and I was uncomfortable. It didn't matter if I was though,' you whispered. Billy sighed and looked at you.

'Fuckin hell, luv... That's all kinds of fucked up,' he said. He moved closer and held your face in his hand. You smiled a little and nuzzled into it.

'How will this end...?' you whispered.

'I don't know, darling.'

--

The Boys had you sitting on the couch as they tried to check in on your clone, but not matter how hard they tried they couldn't. Frenchie stared at the device for a second before looking at you.

'He knows, mon Cher...' he whispered. Your eyes widened and you grabbed Billy's hand.

'What?'

'Your system is being overided,' Frenchie said as he plugged the device in and tried to keep up with the over ride. You looked at Billy and squeezed his hand.

'Bloody fix it, Frenchie!' Billy shouted. You pulled Billy towards you and looked at him.

'Find me... Okay? Promise you'll find me,' you whispered. He held your face in his hand and looked into your eyes.

'It's alright, we're gonna get through this. Frenchie can...' he trailed off when you collapsed backward onto the couch. Your eyes were open and empty as the team stared in shock.

'The body is empty now,' Frenchie whispered.

'Well, bloody get her back!' Billy shouted as he held your empty body.

'I can't, mon ami! She's gone... She's back in Vought's system,' Frenchie said. Billy held your face and looked down at you.

'I'll bloody find you... Alright?'

--

When you woke up again you were in a small white room. You looked around and glanced down to see you were completely naked. 'Billy... Billy!' The door opened and you looked up to see Homelander. You gasped and scurried away into the corner, his glare was deadly.

'I see Billy tried to get back at me for what I did to his wife,' he said. You paused and looked up at him.

'His wife...? What did you do to his wife?' you whispered as Homelander smiled sickly sweet.

'I kidnapped her and forced her to have my child,' he said like it was the most casual thing in the world.

'What? Why would you do that?'

'She was beautiful and easy,' he said. You felt sick to your artificial stomach and slowly stood up. 'So, tell me. Did he fuck you?'

'No... We didn't have sex,' you whispered. Homelander moved forward and looked at you, his body almost pressed against yours.

'I don't believe you,' he whispered as he reached down and ran his hand over your hip.

'He told me the truth. I know I'm not real, Homelander. I know you don't love me and I know I don't love you,' you said. He reached up and gripped your throat as you looked at him in fear.

'I can change that in a second, sweetheart. Reset that little brain, make you love me again. Before that I have a better idea,' he whispered as he gently ran his hand through your hair. You looked up at him and felt tears in your eyes, he saw a tear drop from your eyes and chuckled. 'It's going to be fun breaking you, sweetheart.'

--

You woke up again, but this time you felt...different. You groaned and slowly sat up to see you were in an endless black void. There was another figure standing further away and you realised it was Billy, without hesitation you began to run. 'Billy!'

He turned around in confusion before his eyes landed on you. He went to rush forward before an invisible force stopped you both. 'Darlin... What is this place? What's going on?' he asked as you looked at him.

'I don't know. I woke up in Vought with Homelander and now I'm here,' you said before you felt arms wrap around you. Homelander chuckled softly in your ear as he stared at Billy.

'Rumour has it you had a little turn with my wife,' Homelander said as he kissed your neck. You wanted to shove him away, but you couldn't, your body wouldn't let you. Billy remained quiet and just kept his eyes on you.

'I'm sorry,' you whispered, Billy could tell you were fighting your own programming.

'What the fuck is this place?' Billy grumbled as he looked at Homelander.

'Oh, just a little dream land I had a supe help me with. See I might not be able to track you down, but my little supe friend can track you through dreams,' Homelander said as his hand went under your shirt. 'And now, you get to watch me have what's rightfully mine,' Homelander said as Billy's jaw clenched. 'All while you're forced to watch,' he said with a small laugh in your ear. You looked at Billy and let out a choked sob as you watched him try to fight against his own body and break free from standing there frozen. Homelander began to touch you as you kept your eyes on Billy.

'I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.'

'Don't you dare apologise, darlin. Focus on me, alright? Just focus on me,' he whispered as you continued to cry while Homelander touched you.

'Look at you, William. Trying to be all heroic to my little doll,' Homelander said before he forced you to bend over. 'We'll see how long that lasts.'

Billy woke up practically screaming when Frenchie and Kimiko rushed into his room.

'Y/N... Fuck!' he shouted as he slammed his fist into the wall beside him.

'Billy, what's wrong?'

'I saw Y/N... I don't know how but that bastard somehow fuckin made me watch what he did to her.'

'It was just a nightmare, mon Ami,' Frenchie said gently.

'No! It was bloody real! I know he fuckin did this. We need to find her,' Billy said as he stumbled out of his room.

'We can, but first you need to eat and drink something. You've been working non stop and that won't help anyone,' Frenchie said. Billy sighed and collapsed onto the couch.

'Fine...'

--

Homelander woke up and saw you beside him, he smiled and brought you against his body. He could see you were awake and terrified. 'I'll reset that little brain soon enough, but first I want you to know what happens when you go against me,' he whispered as he kissed your neck softly. 'I want you to be completely aware of everything I force you to do.'

You let out a sob as your body trembled and he chuckled softly. 'Why are you doing this?'

'Why? Because you're mine, sweetheart. You were made for me, your only purpose is to obey me and you couldn't even do that right. I'm just teaching you a lesson, making sure you're perfect,' he said as his grip tightened.

'Then I want you to know... No matter how much you reset me or reprogram me I will never truly love you. You can have my body and whatever else you want but my heart isn't yours,' you said as he laughed softly in your ear.

'That's a beautiful sentient, darling. Only one problem, you don't have a heart. You're not a person, you're just a piece of fucking scrap,' he growled. 'Without me you're a worthless pile of fucking parts. So, maybe be a little more grateful to me,' he said as he gripped your throat tightly. You whined and tried to move away as he brought you closer. He chuckled and nuzzled into your neck. 'I'll make you so perfect, darling.'

(details for Vought are inncorrect but oh well deal with it)

You knew you weren't exactly what your father had wanted in a daughter. He wanted a beautiful, blonde daughter. Not a pale, dark haired daughter with almost black eyes. With a bit of modification and a lot of hair dye you'd become perfect, apart from having to always wear glasses to hide your eyes. You could phase through walls and teleport, it came in handy especially when sparring with your father. Today was different, he wanted you to spar with a power dampening collar on. You stood across from him and he smirked when he saw how scared you were. 'Fear will weaken you, sweetheart. You can't be the future of Vought if you're scared of me,' he said as he stepped closer.

'I'm not scared,' you whispered before he rushed forward and went to grab you but you quickly dodged his attack. You stepped back and tried to keep your eyes on him, it wasn't exactly fair considering you were seven years old with a power dampening collar on and he was a full grown man with powers. He stalked closer to you and went to hit you before you dodged again. 'You're good at playing defensive, sweetie. Why don't you try to actually fight back?' he said.

'I don't know how, father...'

'Like this, darling,' he said before hitting you in the stomach causing you to hit the ground. You whined and held your stomach begore standing up again. You stumbled towards him and tried to hit him again before he shoved you back down to the floor.

'Father... I don't know how to spar without my power. Can you teach me first before hurting me?' you whispered as he chuckled softly.

'I am teaching you, darling. You just need to get tougher,' he said as he forced you to stand up. You shoved him away from you and made him laugh softly. 'That's better, but you need to not hit like a girl.'

'But I am a girl...' you whispered.

--

Your father had taken your collar off after a rather unfair sparring match and you began to wander to halls as your wounds began to heal and regenerate. You decided to head to the lower grounds of Vought, you'd known your father said to never go there but you wanted to do something to make him angry. You had swiped a doctors card and headed for the lower levels, when the doors opened you saw just a singular door with no handle or keypad to unlock it. You glanced around before phasing through the wall. Suddenly you stood in green grass with trees around you. You glanced around in confusion before you heard a noise and quickly hid behind a tree. You saw a woman running around with a young boy in front of a house. Her eyes landed on you and you quickly hid further behind the tree.

'Stay here, Ryan...' she said before walking over. You peaked your head out and she let out a soft gasp when she saw your dark eyes and pale skin. 'Hello... Who are you?'

'I'm Y/N,' you whispered.

'How did you get in here?'

'I snuck in,' you said.

'Do you know where your parents are, sweetheart?'

'Father is in a meeting,' you said. She glanced over you and noticed a lot of bruises.

'A meeting... Does he know you're here?' she asked as you shook your head.

'I know this place is off limits and I wanted to know why... I didn't know there was a whole house down here. Why are you living here?' you whispered.

'It's a long story... A very bad man is keeping me here,' she said. You stepped closer to you and glanced up shyly.

'Do you want me to rescue you?'

'That's very sweet of you, darling... I don't think there's a way to do that,' she said. You glanced behind her to see the young boy running towards you.

'Mom! Who is that?' he asked.

'Ryan... This is Y/N. Y/N, this is my son, Ryan.'

'My father is homelander,' he said as your eyes widened.

'But...he's my father,' you said. The woman looked at you in shock.

'Homelander has a daughter?' she whispered.

'I didn't come out right...'

'What do you mean, sweetie?' she asked.

'My real hair is black and my eyes are ugly,' you whispered. She smiled and kneeled down.

'I think they're quite beautiful,' she said as you smiled a little.

'Y/N!' you heard a voice shout. You turned around to see your father and the woman could see the pure terror in your eyes. He stormed forward and grabbed you roughly.

'She was just lost, she didn't mean any harm,' she said as your father glared at her.

'Take Ryan and get the fuck back inside,' he growled. She looked at you and hesitated. 'Now, Becca!' he shouted as she nodded and quickly grabbed Ryan. You glanced up at your father.

'You're the bad man keeping her here... Aren't you?' you whispered. His jaw clenched as he dragged you away from the house and back into the sterile white room beyond the doors.

--

It had been ten years since then. Last you heard the woman you knew as Becca was long dead. You were sitting in the meeting room with your dark glasses covering your eyes when the doors opened and you glanced up to see your father and brother. Ever since Ryan had started living in vought and training your father had practically forgotten about you.

'Y/N, your roots are starting to show. Go to the hair stylist and get it redyed,' Homelander demanded as you rolled your eyes.

'Ryan has brown hair... Why does it matter if I have black hair?'

'Because black hair makes you not look like my daughter. Now, go!' he shouted. You stood up and shuffled away from them, not before shoving Ryan before you left. You had no intention of going to the stylist, you didn't care. Instead you decided to research something, Becca's grave. You wanted to know if she had anyone on the outside that had cared for her or even knew she died. Once you found the grave site you snuck past security and headed out into the streets of the city. You kept a hood over your head and your glasses on as you got onto the bus and sat down. You made it just outside the city to the graveyard and began to walk around until you found Becca's grave. You stopped whne you saw a man there staring at the grave. You lingered behind and pretended to look at another grave. He turned around slightly and glanced at you. 'Oi, Lennon what are you lingering back there for?'

'Sorry... Sorry, I just wanted to...I was going to,' you stuttered to try and find the words before you stepped closer but kept your head down. 'Was she your friend...?'

'No, she was my wife.'

'Your wife,' you whispered in shock. 'You're Billy, aren't you?'

'That I am, luv. And you are?'

You backed away and tried to keep your face covered. 'I should go, I'm sorry,' you whispered. He lunged forward and grabbed your arm to stop you. He reached up and ripped your hood off your head.

'Homelander's little girl... The bloody hell do you want?' he growled as you stared at him in fear.

'I wanted to know if the outside world knew Becca was gone... I wanted to see her grave,' you said. His grip lightened a bit as he looked at you.

'You knew her?'

'I met her once, a long time ago. I broke into where father was keeping her and I met her and Ryan. She was kind to me,' you said.

'You broke in but didn't think to try and help the woman who was being held Captive by your own father?' he said as his grip tightened again.

'I wanted to help, but I was seven! What the hell was I meant to do?' you said as he sighed and shook his head. He finally let go of you and you stumbled back a bit.

'Nothing will bring her back now anyway,' he said.

'I'm sorry, Billy... I was just a kid, one who didn't know anything.'

'I never heard much about you anymore after Ryan came into the picture,' Billy said. You stepped closer and looked down at Becca's grave.

'He's more suited to being Homelander's kid. Me, I'm just a mistake,' you said.

'So, the blonde hair ain't even real huh?' Billy said as he nodded to your black roots that were starting to grow out.

'Nope... I'm not what he wanted. I'm pale with black hair and black eyes, not exactly what the public wants to see,' you grumbled.

'Black eyes?' he asked. You looked at him and slowly took your glasses off as he looked at your black eyes with a slight yellow tinge in the centre.

'Bloody hell... And your father thinks this is ugly?'

'You don't?' you asked.

'No, they're unique and definitely interesting,' he said. You chuckled and put the glasses back on.

'So... What was Becca like? I only met her that once,' you said. Billy sighed and looked back at the grave.

'Kind and fearless... She gave everyone a chance no matter what. I don't think she would like who I've become,' he whispered.

'She was forced to live with a man she hated and have his kid. I'm pretty sure she would love you even more considering the fact that you haven't stopped trying to avenge her,' you said. He turned to you with shock in his eyes.

'You're bloody wise for a teenager. I guess you're right either way,' he grumbled. 'What's your power?'

'I can phase through walls and teleport. Comes in handy when I want to sneak into things. Father took my powers away for two years after I met Becca.'

'He made you wear one of those damn collars?' he asked.

'Yeah... I should get going, if father knows what I've done we'll have to have another sparring session.'

As you were about to leave Billy grabbed your wrist. 'Sparring? Does he hit you?'

'He says it's to train me, but it's just a reason to beat the shit out of me.'

Billy sighed and shook his head. 'God, he's a cunt. Listen... I'll talk to you again, alright?'

'How?' you asked.

'I'll figure it out... Stay safe, kid.'

--

You were in your father's apartment when Ryan walked in. You looked at him and went to leave before he stopped you. 'Wait... Why do you hate me?' he asked. You stopped and looked at him in shock, he had never been so forward.

'I don't...hate you,' you grumbled.

'Yes, you do. You avoid me, shove me, call me names. What the hell did I do to you?' he said.

'You got to know her!' you shouted. He looked at you in confusion and let go of you.

'What...? Who?'

'Becca... Your mother, Billy's wife. You got to know her, you got to love her and she loved you. It isn't fair,' you muttered as you backed away.

'It isn't fair that I grew up imprisoned in a fucking simulation? You got to grow up in Vought tower,' he said.

'I didn't get a mother! And I got a father that hated me so much he wants me to change everything about me! A father that would beat the fuck out of me,' you said with tears in your eyes. Ryan stopped and looked at you in shock.

'He hurt you...?'

'You know how father likes to spar with us? To train us, well you get to use your powers, I don't.'

'I don't understand,' he muttered.

'I have to wear a power dampening collar when we spar. He gets to beat the crap out of me and I can't escape,' you explained. Ryan stepped forward and looked at you.

'Y/N... I didn't know about it. I'm sorry, he just always talks about how spoilt and bitchy you are. I guess I believed him,' he said.

'I guess your childhood wasn't that great either. I'm just...I'm jealous,' you whispered.

'You're jealous of me? Why?'

'You're the centre of attention, father loves you more and...you got to have Becca,' you whispered.

'How did you find out about my mother?'

'I met her... When I was young, I guess you were too young to remember. After father hurt me I was feeling rebellious and found you guys. Becca was so kind to me, then father found me and dragged me back,' you whispered.

'I don't remember it... I'm sorry, Y/N.'

'I'm sorry too... I funnelled my hate into you instead of father,' you whispered.

'Maybe we could actually get to know each other?' he said as you smiled.

'I think that would be nice.'

'So, why do you always wear glasses? Even inside,' Ryan asked as you followed him to the couch. You sat down and slowly took your glasses off and Ryan looked into your eyes. 'Woah...'

'Father doesn't want people to see my real eyes. I dye my hair, tan my skin, wear the damn glasses...'

'He wants you to look different? Why?'

'Please, he's all about appearances. He wants a blonde bimbo daughter, not whatever the hell I am,' you mumbled.

'For what it's worth, I think you're beautiful the way you are,' he said. You chuckled softly and smiled.

'You sound like Billy.'

'You've met Billy...?' he asked.

'Yeah, like an hour ago. Please don't tell father. I wanted to know if Becca had a grave,' you said.

'And...does she?'

'Yeah, she does. It's really nice out there. I spoke to Billy for a bit, he's not as bad as everyone makes him out to be,' you whispered.

'He isn't, he's always looked out for me despite who my father is.'

'I wish someone cared about me. Cared enough to want to protect me...'

'Well, I know we aren't that close but I still care about you. I would protect you and...I should protect you. I just didn't know father hurt you,' he whispered. You could tell he was feeling guilty about it.

'It's okay, it's not your fault. Thankfully these days we don't spar as much as we used to,' you said before the front door opened and you glanced up to see your father.

'Look at this, my two children finally getting along. I never thought I would see this day, especially after what Y/N did to your mother, Ryan,' he said as Ryan looked at him in confusion.

'What are you talking about?' he asked.

'Oh... You didn't know, look at me running my mouth again,' he said. You stood up and looked at him in confusion.

'Father, I didn't do anything to Becca,' you said. He stepped closer and gently tucked your hair behind your ear.

'You don't remember, you were too young and wrapped up in your own little selfish world. After you had visited her that one time you went back, I suppose you were jealous,' he said as he continued to play with your hair. 'Don't you remember, Ryan? You woke up to a trail of blood and found your mother bleeding out on the ground?' he said as Ryan glanced at you and then back at your father.

'No, that was an accident... She fell over on the glass table,' Ryan said as he stood up. You continued to stare at your father in confusion.

'Father, I didn't go back after that time. You kept a power dampening collar on me,' you said as he reached down and held your throat.

'You know I don't like when you tell lies, sweetheart. I know you don't want to look like a monster, but he deserves the truth doesn't he?'

'Father, you're hurting her,' Ryan said as he stepped closer.

'You really want to get close with your sister? The one who hurt your mother, the one that hates you, the one that lies and manipulates us both?' Homelander said as he gripped your throat tighter. You teleported out of his grip and stumbled onto the ground behind him.

'Ryan, don't listen to him... I never hurt her, I promise,' you said as Ryan rushed forward. He helped you stand up and made sure you were okay.

'It's okay, sis... I believe you,' he said. You smiled and let out a breath of relief as your father glared at you both.

'You want to side with her, Ryan? Not with your own father? The one who helped raise you? Your sister is a monster who will hurt you, do you have any idea the things she's done? The people she's killed?' he said as you looked at him in shock.

'Stop...' you whispered as the memories began to rush back to you.

'What, sweetheart? You don't want your little brother to know how dangerous you are?' Homelander taunted as he stepped closer. You felt tears in your eyes as the memories of blood and guts bombarded your mind. 'Remember all those times you lost control? Phasing through people like they were nothing. Killing them without a second though,' he continued as you began to cry.

'No, it was an accident! I was a child, I didn't know how to control my powers!' you said as your body began to phase in and out. You stepped back in fear and stared at your hands.

'Father enough!' Ryan said as he stepped in front of you. You sobbed and held your head as you tried to stay in control. You didn't exactly want to phase through the floor.

'I don't want to phase... I'm sorry, I'm sorry,' you whispered as Homelander smirked.

'See? She's dangerous and unpredictable, son.'

'No! She's afraid! I'm not letting you hurt her anymore,' Ryan said as he turned around and looked at you. He made sure to not touch you. 'Y/N, it's okay. You're not going to hurt anyone, just focus on me,' he said.

'You know you need your collar on, sweetheart. You wouldn't want to kill your own brother would you?' Homelander said as you cried more.

'You don't need the collar, Y/N. You can control this!' Ryan said. You shook your head as you felt your feet starting to phase.

'No! I need the collar!' you shouted as Homelander smirked and grabbed it off the bench. He handed it to you and you quickly attached it around your neck before falling to your knees. You panted and glanced up at Ryan. 'I'm sorry...'

'It's okay. I know you're scared,' he said as he knelt down with you. Homelander smiled and stood beside you as he played with your hair.

'See, sweetheart? It doesn't matter if you're a monster because your family is here to make sure you stay on your little leash,' he said in a condescending tone.

'Haven't you got another meeting, father?' Ryan grumbled.

'Yes, I do. Stay out of trouble, don't try to take that collar off her. I'm the only one that can take it off anyway. Sweetheart, think about your little tantrum, there will be consequences,' Homelander said as he began to leave.

'Yes, father...' you whispered before the door closed. You glanced at Ryan sadly. 'I'm sorry I caved... I was just so scared, I didn't want to hurt you.'

'Was he telling the truth... About you hurting my Mom?' he asked. You nodded a little and could feel the memory in the back of your head.

'I think I remember... It's just small snippets, for some reason the collar was off and I snuck in again. I remember hugging her and then...I accidentally phased and must've hurt her somehow. I don't remember much else,' you whispered.

'I knew you'd never mean to hurt anyone, despite what father says. Come on, come sit down and I'll get you some food,' he said as he helped you stand up. You smiled and sat down on the couch.