The A Team

Rusty looks to his side where Mylo sat, hip to hip with Rusty. Rusty looks at the puzzle game Mylo was playing. He’s so smart. It took Rusty nearly ten minutes to do one of the beginning levels.

“Mylo, do you..” He trails off and chews on his bottom lip more. Mylo doesn’t question him, he lets Rusty take his time. Rusty sighs and shakes his head, “Nevermind.” Mylo takes his eyes off the screen and looks up at Rusty. He looks a little sad and worried.

“Are you sure?” Rusty rubs the back of his neck and thinks about it.

“I’m just.. Do you really like spending time with me?” Mylo’s gaze hardened, eyebrows furrowing.

“Of course I do, why would you even ask that?” Rusty felt nervous. And so goddamn stupid. He beats himself up for a few second before responding.

“I just feel like I annoy you and like.. I’m not good enough for you. You’re so smart and kind, and I’m just.. dumb.”

“God, you really are stupid. You’re not.. dumb, okay? Yeah, academically you’re below average, but I don’t care about how smart you are. And you really are kind too. You care about people so so much. You say really weird things and call my pecs “tiddies” a lot, but that’s just who you are.”

Mylo puts his phone down and cups Rusty’s face, bringing them only inches apart. “And I love you for who you are. Okay? Please, don’t doubt that.” Rusty can’t help but smile. It’s hard for his anxiety to not get the best of him, but with some reassurances he can hopefully get better.

“Okay, I trust you.” Mylo smiles and kisses Rusty’s forehead.

Orchids - Are you good at keeping secrets?

“Uhhhhhh, I guess so. I mean, honestly, I’ll probably just forget what you told me in the first place, so yeah I’m good at keeping secrets.”

“Oh, definitely! Mostly between me and Velocity, that we swore to never tell anyone else since we were kids.”

Gardenia - Who are your top five favorite people?

“Oh shit. Um, okay.” Rusty starts counting on his fingers. “Juni, Mylo, Moth, Daniel.. Uh, does it count if they’re dead? If so, then Jasper, but, if not, then Jaren.”

Daniel hums, thinking of all the people who he really cares about. “Hmm. Velocity, Drift, Brite, Rusty. I’m not sure who else. I wanna say my mom, but I can’t remember her anymore.”

Dahlia - What’s your least favorite season?

Rusty - Spring

Daniel - Summer

Tulip - Who would you yell at right now and why?

Rusty hummed. “I’m not sure. I’m not really angry about anything right now. I’m a little upset about stuff, but the anger has passed about that stuff.” His thumb traces over his left wrist. “It’s be more crying than yelling..”

“Uhh. Yeah, I’m not real mad at anything. I’m in a pretty good place right now, sort of. I don’t get mad easily or like to get mad, so.. yeah.”

Bluemink -  Favorite Candy?

Rusty - Twix

Daniel - Mr Goodbar

Hollyhock - Do you swear a lot or do you censor yourself?

Rusty snorts. “Fuck yeah, I swear a lot. There was absolutely no censoring in all my life, so I don’t care. They’re just words, you know?”

Daniel twiddled with his fingers, pushing his index fingers together. “Uh, I don’t usually censor myself. But I’m not big on saying the F word, everything else I use.”

Calla Lily - who did you text last and what was the text about?

“Oh I was just sending a bunch of memes to Mylo. I feel like he gets lonely sometimes, so I text him as much as possible.”

“Just asking Brite what she wanted from the store.”

Baby’s-breath - Have you ever babysat before?

Rusty laughs, genuinely amused by the question. “Hell no! I’ve never known anyone with a baby, and I don’t think anyone would or should trust me with one.”

“I think I have before, wouldn’t be surprised. I’m pretty good with kids, they’re easy to hang out with.”

Crocus - Describe yourself in 5 words.

“Uhhhhhh. Stupid, hot, feral. Um.. nice words.. Kind? I don’t really know what else.”

Daniel take his time to think before counting the words on his fingers. “Nice, strong, doormat, confidant, and calm, I guess.”

Calluna - Favorite animal?

Rusty - Possum

1.) What’s your favourite music genre? 

Rusty really likes rock of all types. He might dip his toes into metal but he mostly stays in pink and indie rock. And anything that’s remotely horny or suggestive and fun

I’m the same way, I guess. Music genre’s are hard for me to keep up with and identify. I really just like loud and sad stuff. That’s my type. And a couple of musicals whatever that counts as

2.) What’s your favourite band(s)? 

Front bottoms 10000000% for Rusty. Every single song I listen to I can fit him into, its so perfect and it’s the type of music he’d relate to and feel less alone with

I really love the Front bottoms music, but I also really like Twenty One Pilots and Mike Krol. All of them have at least a couple of songs that fit perfectly in my Trauma playlist and those songs really help me feel like I will be able to heal one day, I just have to take my time and know that it will happen.

3.) Which music genre is your least favourite? 

Country for both. So fucking annoying and they talk about trucks and beer and women and both of us hate it so much.

Mun can only really listen to Sweet home Alabama cause the music is actually nice and I grew up with that song and actually liked it,, but that’s the only one.

Otherwise if I hear country I want to tear my skin off idk, I think part of it is due to trauma so

8.) What song do you listen to to feel happier? 

Oooh Using from Sorority Noise. There’s comes a point where he talks about being able to love and feel again and I always imagine rusty with that. He’s out off being in a relationship cause he feels like he doesn’t deserve it and will just hurt them.

But his self esteem has gotten better and he finally understands that he deserves happiness and can let go of what he’s done in the past.

I don’t really listen to happy music? Or listen to anyone to feel better. There’s stuff like I wanna hold your Hand and Steven Universe music, usually just love songs, otherwise there’s nothing real happy I listen to.

10.) What song have you listened to the most? 

Oh hmmmmmm. For rusty maybe Twin Sized Mattress for a while and Verbatim (Mother Mother). I’m not really sure to be honest.

I definitely really listen to Fences (Destroy Boys). Power Chords, Red Minivan and Blue and Pink (Mike Krol). Twin Sized Mattress, Father, 12 Feet Deep and Be Nice to Me (The Front Bottoms)

I guess you could also throw in Body (Mother Mother) cause I have listen to that for literally two hours straight and even then I haven’t gotten tired of it and it sounds like a good depression song so

I really can’t pick one cause all of these kinds feel healing and I listen to a lot of music. These are ones that I just listen to the most.

october - what month were you born in?

Rusty - October

Daniel - June

caress - do you like to snuggle?

Rusty - Absolutely!! It makes him feel safe and wanted

Daniel - Yes! It’s comforting and, like rusty, makes him feel wanted

freckles - most-worn article of clothing?

Rusty - Perhaps his black fishnet crop top or a black hoodie he painted music lyrics on

Daniel - His jacket! He wears it almost everyday unless it’s hot or the jacket is dirty

twilight - best friend?

Rusty - Honestly just Juni and Mylo, he really can’t put one over the other

Daniel - Drift! They’ve had a regular casual friendship for years, but only recently did they did get real close.

whisper - how much sleep do you get?

Rusty - 6 hours, he used to get 10 but recently he’s been getting up earlier to try and function like a normal human being. He’s a little bad at it

Daniel - A solid 8, but some nights he stays up late just thinking about stuff

cupcake - are you a good cook?

Rusty - No! He used to be absolutely horrible, but now he can make ramen and grilled cheese sandwiches!

Daniel - He’s not fantastic, but still really good. He tends to cook big meals for him and Velocity. It’s not a passion, but cooking is something he has taken up as a hobby

honey - favorite term of endearment?

Rusty - Baby. He feels so soft and loved and warm when called this

He didn’t just want their type of relationship, he wanted them. They treated him with such kindness and comfortability. There was no awkwardness in any of their relationships. It was starting to hurt again.

He wanted them both so bad. He wanted his hand to be the one they held while having a casual conversation with a friend. To wake up and cook breakfast for them, a kiss goodnight, date night out to Durr Burger. But they reserved it for themselves. Just them two.

It was sad. He finally has close friends again and he’s crushing on them. Again. Was he just cursed to be in a cycle of the friend zone? Whatever. He doesn’t want to lose them like he did Rusty. So once again, he’ll stuff his feelings and continue to be friends.

What is something they’re legitimately bad it?

“Uhhhhhh being serious I guess. Like, I’m a good listener and I can give emotional advice, but I consistently make jokes. Laughter is just my biggest coping mechanism, I guess. Makes me feel less uncomfortable.”

How do they feel about public displays of affection?

“PDA is great! As long as my partner is okay with it, I’m holding their hand and I’m going to kiss them and hug them! And touch their butt probably too.”

Who is their favorite person(s) to spend time with?

“Uh, this is obviously Mylo, and Juni too. They’re nice and the people I’m closest to. They make happy, so..”

What is the most romantic thing someone has done for them?

He feels cold. Sharp chills run through his body up and down all throughout his vessel. He stares at the ground, he tended up. Regretful memories, his fingers twitched. But then he chuckles and rubs his neck. “Uh, not sure. My memory is blanking out on me right now, I can’t think.” But his voice was weak and his smile is forced.

What is something that never fails to make them excited?

02 - Rusty said it to Juni (Sparkle Supreme/Specialist). - Daniel said it to his sister Velocity. ~ 

14 - Rusty sighs. "Yeah." - Daniel twiddles his thumbs, "Yes.." 

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19 - Rusty nods fast. "Absolutely. I would take any chance I could to go back." - Daniel nods, less enthused than Rusty. "Yeah. Knowing what I know now. I'm sure nothing will change, but it wouldn't hurt to take a chance." 

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29 - Rusty scratches his cheek. "I'd probably say yes. I don't remember any times that I did, but probably." - Daniel shrugs. "I've only been in one relationship and it wasn't for very long. Does it count if they cry only after you break up with them?" 

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35 - Rusty sucks in a breath. "Oooh, maybe Mylo.... Definitely Mylo, he's the only person I'm super comfortable crying in front of." _ "Drift, I guess. It wasn't like sobbing, but it was a few tears."

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57 - Rusty nods his head. "Absolutely. I don't think that it occurs between just two people though. I believe that everyone once in their life will find someone that they love more than anything, whether it be platonic, family or romantic. - Daniel nods but also shrugs. "I don't really know. I mean, I guess I could believe in it with like, platonic love. Like, I love my sister, she's my whole world. I don't know what I would do without her 

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