Athena

anyway idk if anyone else feels like this but I felt it was the right place

[disclaimer: ik this works for some people, if you like labelling your attraction go for it I just don't like how forced it is on people]

I (Noah) also feel this kinda way with how I feel attraction, I have this one person (those who know me will know EXACTLY who I'm talking about lol) who I feel deeply attracted to.

It's not in a romantic way, but it's definitely different than how I feel towards all of my other close friends. I've felt this way since we were younger, and I deeply care about them, wanting to spend our lives together and always be friends.

I just know if I said this to people they'd likely say what I'm feeling is romantic or smth like "there's no platonic explanation for what you're feeling".

Why can't it be nuanced? Why can't my emotions be complicated?

I think it's very interesting how we experience attraction of any kind. Sexual, Romantic, Platonic, Familial, and so many other types and in betweens.

It sucks that our feelings are put into boxes and stuff (and while that does suit a LOT of people, it doesn't suit ALL).

I agree with you when you say, "what if I love in a way that is entirely different and queer" because honestly? That resonates with me a whole lot, especially so with the friend I mentioned above. Particularly the "simultaneously romantic and platonic and neither and indescribable" because that's exactly how it feels, and you've put it into words!!

We don't have anything to compare our own experiences to, only that we experience them. There's no right or wrong way to feel, and I think that should be a more widespread view (now when it comes to ACTING on those feelings, that's completely different, but that's a whole different can of worms).