an odd bunch

i’m not even a little bit sorry. content warnings for possible death, alcoholism, cheating, etc. change tenses / pronouns as needed. 

❝ nobody knew how much she blamed herself. ❞ 

❝ she finally drank her pain away a little at a time. ❞ 

❝ she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind. ❞ 

❝ the person i’ve been lately ain’t who i want to be. ❞ 

❝ god gave me you. ❞

❝ if you’re going out with someone new, i’m going out with someone too. ❞ 

❝ i won’t feel sorry for me. ❞ 

❝ i’m getting drunk, but i’d much rather be somewhere with you. ❞ 

❝ i can go home with anybody i want, but it’s only a temporary fix. ❞ 

❝ you won’t ask and i won’t say. ❞

❝ i couldn’t see how every sign pointed straight to you. ❞ 

❝ i’d like to take the time i lost and give it back to you. ❞ 

❝ i could lean in to hold you or act like i don’t even know you and you couldn’t care less either way. ❞ 

❝ what happened to that girl i used to know? ❞ 

❝ i just want us back to the way we were before. ❞

❝ do i still have your love? ❞ 

❝ would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely? ❞ 

❝ do i need to just give up and get on with my life? ❞ 

❝ do i turn you on at all when i kiss you? ❞ 

❝ i’m second guessing everything i see. ❞

❝ i’ll never get over you walking away. ❞ 

❝ it’s gonna hurt bad before it gets better. ❞ 

❝ i’ve never been the kind to ever let my feelings show. ❞ 

❝ i thought being strong meant never losing your self control. ❞

❝ i’m just drunk enough to let go of my pain. ❞ 

❝ when someone stops loving you, it don’t make the evening news. ❞ 

❝ the hardest part about it is there isn’t a flip you can switch cause you can’t stop loving them. ❞ 

❝ what’s your all time high, as good as it gets, hands down ever best make up sex? ❞ 

❝ what’s the best thing you’ve ever lucked into? mine would be you. ❞ 

i  hate  that  i  have  to  do  this ,  especially  now ,  so  near  to  christmas  time  where  people  are  supposed  to  be  joyous  and  having  a  grand  old  time.  but  my  work  has  royally  fucked  me  over  —–   again.  

as  you  all  know  i  have  been  off  work  the  past  week  with  the  worst  chest  infection  of  my  life  (  and  still  suffering  )   i  sent  in  a  sick  note  on  thursday  after  visiting  the  doctors  so  that  i  would  be  paid  my  SSP  on  time  (  friday  14th  )  except  my  bosses  never  put  the  dates  into  the  system  until  today,  meaning  they  missed  the  deadline.  

we  have  an  app  in  which  we  can  check  what  our  pay  will  be  a  few  days  in  advance  and  i’ve  just  checked  it ,  i  will  be  paid  for  the  three  days  of  work  the  week  before  i  was  off  and  that  is  it.  that  is  £180.  this  has  to  see  me  through  two  weeks  of  work  until  i  am  next  paid  ;   but  out  of  that  i  also  have  bills  to  pay ;   (   internet ,  phone ,  rent  )  i  am  going  to  be  penniless.  for  two  whole  weeks.  with  no  money  to  buy  food  or  any  other  necessities  that  i  will  need.  

my  work  has  no  damage  control  procedures  for  when  things  like  this  happen ,  i  will  literally  just  have  to  wait  until  my  next  pay  day  after  friday  which  will  be  dec  28th  before  i  receive  any  of  what  i  am  owed.