I have so many dreams to achieve, I want to be an actress, I want to be an artist, I want to be loved and to help people.

But I feel so stuck in this town, I dont have the cash to move out yet, and I cant find a job with free weekends that would get me out (Im actually recording a show on the weekends).

Also I've been missing people I shouldn't be missing, i dont want to get back together with my ex but id like to know how he is doing ya know?

We went down in flames and hurt each other beyond measure, but part of me wishes we could catch up sometimes, I truly wish him happiness.

Heard he is doing a short movie, actually Id love to act in something directed by him. Acting in your ex's movie doesnt scream healed but its seriously just because I think our creative visions would align so much looool 😭. I think he has potencial and I believe in my own acting skills, and if Im being honest our chaotic history would probably be great fuel for a creative project loool

Bye for now,

Chocking a total of 0 ppl I did as a matter of fact quit my internship. Which translates in postponing my uni graduation by a year.

Im not sure it was the ''right'' choice, but truthfully I wasnt learning anything and it was causing me major anxiety, too much for me to be able to mantain my wellbeing so I quit. I dont exactly regret it (or maybe I do a little but am scared of admitting) but I feel like a huge faillure, like everyone was expecting me to go through with it and I wasn't strong enough to do so.

Ik it's my life and in the end is my decision, but I hate disappointing those around me.

Now I'm looking into some short term (financed by the state) courses and job offers so Im not to totally useless during this break lol. Do you guys have any recs of things to do in the meantime? hobbies etc...

(ps: I live in a small town, theres nothing to do around here welp)

Bye for now,

Today I wanna talk about sustainability! I've been thinking about how much waste I produce and I came to the conclusion that the amout of single use plastic and disposable packages in products I use daily is honestly ridiculous.

Most of us want to better our planet but don't pay attention to little things we can do to help, this year I want to start living more intentionaly and that includes being more mindful about the way I treat this planet.

Obviously I'm not saying I'll go 0 waste over night but I want to make some realistic changes, like switching to solid shampoo, recycling, when buying stuff try to look for alternatives with less plastic in it etc...

Like a preacher once told me (about something different but still relevant xD) do little, small and possible aka something that is realistic in my life.

Do you guys have any suggestions of changes I can do to be more sustainable? Or any other suggestions in general? lemme know!

Bye for now,

Today I bring you guys ideas of hobbies and activities to do instead of doomscrolling!

Writing poetry Karaoke in your room Crochetting or knitting Painting or drawing animals Friendship bracelets Follow a pilates tutorial Watch an european movie Diamond painting Tidying your room Writting a song Listening to music from a genre you usually don't listen to Planning a trip even if you have no intention of actually going Draw 10 diferent shapes on paper, name them and give them intricate backstories Journal Girl blog on tumblr Memorize a poem Learn a new word Learn how to read a diferent alphabet (like the korean or russian one) Reading the bible Praying the rosary Write down your favorite prayers in a notebook Write a cringe fanfic about something you like Bake flower shaped cookies Just go for a walk

Bye for now,

I've been thinking about writing more in here, after all it is a blog, I'm not sure anyone would be interest in reading, but if no one is atleast I'll be writing for myself.

Im currently going through a slight existencial crisis (the kind that makes you want to reinvent yourself, not the kind that makes you dread life). And I think its because 1. I had a definite break up with a guy I've been on and off with for years 2. I realized I've been wasting a good part of my life doomscroling and I want to break that cycle and live more intentionally 3. This year I finish my degree 4. On occasion I feel like this just becauseeee

Blogging is one of the things I want to try to do more, because besides liking to write, it's a way of venting, getting my thoughts straighten out and it can also be a way of connecting with other people. I dont know if I'll stick to it but I'll tryyy.

Bye for now,