Astra ☆

I have already stated this in my server, but I figured that I should probably mention this on here as well, for the majority of my readers follow me on here.

First and foremost I want to make it clear that I am so unbelievably thankful for all of the support I have received throughout these past couple of years. Genuinely, you guys made me feel incredibly special, and I am so happy that I was blessed with such a wonderful fanbase! Thank you so much for all of the fanart, love and support, I can't express just how thankful I am.

However, despite my wonderful time within the MD fandom, I am leaving. And with that discontinuing all of my MD fanfics.

It was very difficult to accept that. The me from 2 years ago would've laughed in my face if I were to tell her that I am not interested in MD anymore. However, that's the reality.

Me losing interest in the series is not the only reason, however. Although it's the main one, another reason is the fandom. I am ashamed to even associate with the fandom. What was once a community I felt comfortable in turned into literal hell on earth. It's pure toxicity and there's discourse EVERY. SINGLE. WEEK., which just makes me upset and even more unmotivated to write.

I am sorry that it has come to this; I know what it feels like having your fics discontinued, and I feel incredibly selfish for abandoning them. However, I cannot bring myself to write for the series anymore. I feel nothing but pure stress when trying to continue my fics. It's sad, but that's how I genuinely feel.

I will keep writing for other fandoms, but this is where I part ways with the Murder Drones fandom. Thank you all so so much for your support; I cherish every single one of you, and will never forget what you guys have done for me. This fandom changed my entire life, and you will forever stay in my heart.

Thank you for making me feel heard.

Yours truly

That being said, I truly, very deeply, appreciate ALL of your support. I honestly didn't know what to expect when making those posts, but you guys truly made me feel better <3♡

I rlly hope that I will be able to continue all of my MD fics, for now, I will just take a break, like all of u guys suggested. I appreciate all of you, and I will try my best to do everything I can for you 💞

I won't directly mention your name because I have some respect for you left despite the things you have done to my friends, but knowing that you stalk all of my socials despite me blocking you each and every single time, this message will definitely reach you.

I am tired of ignoring this, I want you to leave me alone. Stop following me like nothing happened. Stop stalking my socials. I am done, I don't want anything to do with you.

You tried sabotaging my friend. Spoke shit about them over stuff that happened months ago. Spread lies that aren't even true. You made my friends uncomfortable. Your behaviour made ME uncomfortable. I blocked you for a reason, yet you just can't seem to get the hint.

I am asking you this once. And only once. Leave me alone. Stop making me uncomfortable. We are not friends, not anymore.

I am currently debating between TBH and L&J, I have motivation to write both I just dunno where to start.

What was your inspiration with deaf cyn? I get the selective mutisn is sonic, but where did the idea of cyn come from? Plot point to explain why N knew asl? Future plans with her?

Cyn is deaf mainly for the plot point to explain why N knows ASL, yes. But I also wanted to have a character that would be able to connect with Uzi by knowing and actively using the same language (that being asl.) I love Cyn; she is one of my favourite characters in Murder Drones. I wanted to give her a role that would always play a relevant part no matter the plot. For example: the fact that V and N agreed to work for Alice just for Cyn. Or the fact that all of them know ASL because Cyn is deaf etc.

What's your plans with cyn? What's the arc? I understand if you dont wanna reveal it yet, but I'm so curious what direction this goes. Will she get a cochlear implant and become basically hearing? Why? Does she believe she needs to be "cured". Do n and v believe that? Is being deaf apart of her identity? Will it be ripped away due to implant before she really had an opinion on it? Will she prefer to be hearing? Does she think she has to be hearing to be complete? Will she change her mind at all? Will v and n change their mind at all? Will she grow to see it as part of her identity possibly through interactions with uzi and using sign language? Will she find community ever? Does she have internalized ableism she does or doesnt get over regarding being deaf?

I get this is a Nuzi fic with them as the focus, but I'm minoring in asl, and have a special interest in asl and topics relating to internalized ableism due to our society, so I'm really curious.

I love the fic though :3 great read while working. I loved the comment on the piano notes with black Parade, I instantly got what song it was from the description.

Hello!!! Wow, it's so interesting to see someone who is invested in Cyn's plot more than Nuzi's, but hey, I am not complaining ;3 (Holy shit that is a lot of questions LMAO)

Ah, I wish I could reveal as much as I could on her arc, but it's difficult when her story is not the main part of the story, so I can't tell much without spoiling it all.

In this story, my plan for now is that Cyn does wish to be able to at least hear when she wants to hear. There are reasons for that decision, some of which have been briefly hinted at already, and some of which have not yet been revealed. But Cyn does want to understand what the people around her are saying, and perhaps even participate in some of the conversations. I'll put it like that for now!

I will be honest; this comment made me realise that I hadn't thought much about her story until your question popped up. Now I myself am questioning what my intentions with her truly are. Maybe I will change the original script and take a different approach; who knows?

Needless to say, I really appreciate your comment and story you left in your ao3 comment! Honestly, I didn't know that some people that were born deaf never wanted to be cured in the first place; that by being "cured" they actually felt like they lost a part of their identity. I should definitely do more research on the topic. <3

Sonadow AU, in which Sonic is a criminal, and Shadow is an undercover agent sent to capture him. Both keep their identities hidden. ;)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65280409/chapters/167946220