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it will get better with time

for irls: there are initials in the tags of each post for who it’s about :>

YES i am a loser

”awh that would be sweet”

so for the last couple of days i tried to think aloud - to involve her in what was going on in my mind so she wouldn’t feel as if i wasn’t talking to her about anything, saying what i was gonna make myself for lunch, talking about various thoughts i had about what crafts i could make - just silly things

and today she got so angry that i kept telling her things when “she was already dealing with so much stuff from her work and she had such little capacity left, especially with all the stuff i’d been saying today” and she refused to apologise at all for it when i pointed out that i was just trying to talk to her more

sndmsmdms i whimpered a little whilst making out and he just pulled me in closer and kind of scratched the back of my neck and it was just like…

“are you watching your weight?”

“you didn’t eat enough today.”

“that’s really all you’re eating?”

SHUT UP OMFG I LITERALLY COULDNT CARE LESS ABOUT MY WEIGHT!! JUST LET ME EAT WHEN IM HUNGRY AND NOT EAT… WHEN IM NOT HUNGRY!!!

actually no.

i only really care for a maximum of like 5 people in my life and you seem to get bored when i talk about all but one of them. it’s hard trying to have an engaging conversation with you when im not allowed to mention half the stuff i’m interested in because it’s “too much” for you, and it’s especially hard when you seem to get bored of everyone who i’m close to. i’ve tried and tried to be friendly, but it’s getting harder.

you love me so hard but i still can’t sleep,

you’re growing tired of me,

we got pizza, climbed up a smaller hill entirely covered with trees, spent two hours just talking, hugging and kissing and making out a bit in the shade of the trees because there was practically no one else there and then we got ice cream and sat on a bench :>

(he also asked what my ring size was and i may or may not have just short circuited and blushed a lot)

i get off on literally anything he says to me