Inside My World

Today may start a new world for me I haven’t been able to work in 5 years following a car accident in 2019 ! Starting again Isn’t easy especially with the disabilities that I have but have no choice but to return to work of some kind to feel better about myself I have to try! Sounds crazy I know ! I get violently sick at times being around people I am hoping that I can conquer that by hitting it head on !

It is time to start my life blogging! Let me start by telling you a few stories from my childhood and how my life took a drastic turn at the age of 15 then as the blogs go I’ll continue the stories age to age and time to time ! So anyhow I was at the fair grounds and a guy that my brother was friends with ( as was I ) was there also he wanted to go for a drive on the backroad which like I said we had been friends for years I had no reason to question any motive he may have had ! So I without any worry walked up and jumped into his car where he drove up on a road behind the fair grounds! He then parked up there and began to do things I couldn’t believe he was trying to do ! This was a guy that gave me my very first kiss when I was 12 ( kiddy crushes ) ….I then became very uncomfortable being in the car with him ! As quick as I felt that there was a reason to worry I wound up with my head under the steering wheel of his car and my arms shoved into my chest constricted and folded against me by my legs this put me into a fetal position (shown below as close as I can show you to what it actually was ) and why I could not break loose and free myself from this and try to stop what was happening! As he was finished he then got up and I proceeded to get put myself back together and get out of the car and began walking back to the fairgrounds once I had reached it I slid down the hill and tried to blend In with people quickly so I jumped on a ride to make myself unfindable so to speak I was scared and very upset and began to cry on the ride ! My friends quickly gathered at the exit of the ride waiting for me to get off the teacups ( rides ) they knew something was wrong ! I had 2 specific friends that met me there long time friends of mine who went and reported it to the police I was escorted off the fairgrounds by 5 cops that too was horrible for me it looked like I had done something horrible the way the crowd was looking at me ! I was then put into the back of the cop car with my two good friends ! They notified my parents who then came to get me ! They took me to the hospital to have a kit done for evidence! They cut all my nails plucked hairs off me and shaved some ! I then was released to go home ! Returning to school was horrible they all knew what happened the past weekend at the fair so I was stared at constantly and talked about highly ! It had ruined my life completely! My parents took him to court and he got away with it ! I began to receive calls from another family concerning their daughter and the same man , they also took him to court and lost .. another girl also reported this happened to her and she actually wound up pregnant with his child .. their was a few others also that reported him A little later in life by a few years after high school graduation one of my friends that reported him and was in the cop car with me that night went on to marry this man and bare his children! It was like a huge slap in the face for her to have done this ! We didn’t talk much after her having done so ! Fast forward to several years later I receive a phone call from my friend who chose to marry and have kids with this man … asking for my help ! He had began molesting their daughters who at the time only one was in grade school the other was younger the that even ! I was so upset that she had allowed this to happen that she put kids into this possible situation when she knew exactly what kind of man he was ! I had no choice but to go back to court and fight it out again with him for the sake of those kids so he couldn’t hurt them anymore ! This time he lost ! He was indicted on 8 counts all together but not mine because he was then protected by the statute of limitations law ! He received 19 years but mine he just plain got away with ! I seen counselors for a while after that ! At least he’s behind bars now ! This is how my series of life events began at age 15! Come back to find out what happens in my next post !