✨️Rylee✨️

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5:25 AM

The red lettering on the old alarm clock was blurry at first due to you just now waking up, but after a few blinks the time displayed seemed more clearer.

"Of course." You thought.

It was typical for you to wake up before his alarm went off, but you were always thankful for that. You reached across to the alarm clock and shut it off since it was five till it was due to go off. You might as well wake up him yourself. Next to you in bed was your significant other, who didn't even stir from his light snoring when you had rolled over and began to rub his back, your gentle way of waking him up.

"Aizawa." You whispered gently.

"Hm.."

That told you everything you needed to know. Aizawa did not sleep well the night before.

His snoring had stopped so he was at least halfway awake.

"It's almost 5:30." You spoke up again gently.

Aizawa hummed again with a sigh as he rolled his head over to face you. His eyes were halfway open as he stared at you with his hair somewhat messy, an indicator he most likely tossed and turned all night.

"Why are you up so early?" Aizawa asked, his voice deeper than usual since he was still half asleep.

"Just woke up is all."

"Go back to sleep."

"Not a chance." You replied.

Aizawa grumbled in response, but it was all in good and no real harm to it. That was the norm for you both, which Aizawa was thankful for. Aizawa was not a man of many words especially in regards of his own feelings and thoughts, but he was so thankful, so damn thankful for you. You pulled him out of the rut he was in after he left his ex wife Eriko. He did not plan to date someone else for a long time until you appeared into his life. And by God was he grateful for it.

"How did you sleep?"

"Hmh, not great." Aizawa answered with a yawn.

"Thinking about some stuff?"

He slowly nodded which made you shift closer to him.

"Like what?"

Aizawa let out a deep sigh through his nose. He did not like talking about his feelings with others, especially since for years he was not allowed to disclose them. And yet here you are, asking him what he was feeling and thinking about. It was such a foreign thing for Aizawa, that it was almost painful.

"Just..the case."

"Is that all or is there something more?"

Damn, they are onto me.

"It's nothing, I promise. Just the damn case. We have been working on it for so long now it seems like we just get dead end after dead end." Aizawa managed to say.

You have been with Aizawa long enough to catch when he was lying. He ever so subtly bites the inside of his cheek and it was so subtle that to an outsider, they would not have noticed, but for you, it was always the first thing that you see when he is lying. He wasn't lying to be mean though, he was lying to protect you. Aizawa had his own ways of showing how much he loved and cared for you, and this was one of his own special ways.

"I know and I'm sorry." You said.

"You don't need to be sorry," Aizawa said with half amusement, "you didn't do anything wrong."

"Well yeah, I know but I know how much this case means to you. I won't ever give you shit for doing what you have to do." You reassured him.

Aizawa softly nodded. He knew that you meant every word that came out of your mouth, as well as your actions. Aizawa felt out of place when you had first hugged him from behind after he came home from work one day. He wasn't used to getting hugs, let alone one from behind were you could wrap your entire arms around him and holding him tightly and in place. A blanket of love from you.

Or like the time when Aizawa was stumped on when you asked him what his favorite meal was. Why would you ask him something like that? He wasn't even sure since he was used to catering to whatever that someone wanted and never in regard to his own feelings. That afternoon after he got home from work he realized that he loves stir fry and rice bowls. It was the first time anyone had cooked for him and he loved it.

Aizawa pecked your nose with his lips quickly as he finally managed to pull the covers off of him and slip out of bed.

"I'll make you some to-go coffee." You said.

"No, honey, you don't-"

"I will." You said seriously but not meanly.

Someone making coffee for him in the morning before he went to work? He was used to making it for himself, always. Granted you have done it before in the past, but today felt different.

"Okay." Aizawa finally said as he began to get dressed.

You nodded at him as you got out of bed and walked to the kitchen. This was the shared home you both have together. It wasn't anything grand or huge but it was enough for the two of you and for Yumi and her younger sibling every weekend. You strolled to the kitchen and began making him his coffee. Granted Aizawa only drank it black, but it still felt nice to make it for him. One less thing that he had to worry about, even if it was something so small. His favorite thermos was in the dishwasher so you grabbed it, poured the coffee into it until it was full and then screwed the lid on it tightly. And by the time the lid was on tightly, Aizawa stepped out of the bedroom, seemingly messing with his tie.

"Do you need help?" You offered.

"I got it." Aizawa said softly.

Clearly, he was still somewhat asleep with how his eyes were droopy and his movements were slow and also on account of him getting irritated with his tie. You waited a minute or so to see if Aizawa could get it tied but he didn't. You grabbed his thermos and walked over to him.

"Trade." You said.

They want to help me with my tie? I shouldn't need help with it and yet..

Aizawa sighed as he took the thermos from you gently and let go of his tie. The warm liquid went down his throat as you helped him tie his tie up neatly and perfectly.

"There." You said with a smile.

"Not bad." Aizawa commented.

It was perfect but he wouldn't say that out loud. At least, not yet anyway.

"Let me know when you get there before you shut your phone off, okay?"

"I will." Aizawa said.

Even though it was time for him to leave, Aizawa found himself standing there, just looking at you. He was not analyzing you, he was more so checking to make sure you were really standing there in front of him. There was no way that someone this caring and nice to him was in his life right now. He always blinked to make sure you weren't a figment of his imagination and you never were. You would always still be standing there. How could someone so love and caring be in his life right now? He didn't deserve it. And yet..

"Love you." He gruffly said.

"Love you too." You said back.

Aizawa leaned in and pecked your lips softly, his way of saying goodbye for now. After the kiss, he then broke away first, heading to the front door to slip his shoes on before leaving.

"You got this."

Aizawa heard your words and looked back at you to respond back.

"I know."

"What do you mean you know?"

"Because you tell me that everyday and make me believe it." Aizawa replied.

And that's how you knew that your words meant something to him, even if he doesn't say it or make it known. With that, Aizawa slipped his other shoe on and with a genuine smile and holding eye contact, he opened the front door, stepped through and shut it behind him.

Aizawa only had one motivation, in the past, to make it home on time and that was for his two kids. But now he has two motivations. His kids and-

You.

Touta Matsuda, as we all know, can be a bit silly and impulsive sometimes but he would literally do anything for his significant other.

The second you tell him you have anxiety though, he is quick to say: "Anxiety? Like panic attacks and such? Well then how can I help with that?"

Matsuda would even have some anxiety about trying to help and manage with your anxiety but it is only because he wants to be the best for you and help you out as best as he could even if it makes him frazzled or overwhelmed sometimes.

He would see the signs of a silent shutdown very quickly, whether you talk a lot or don't in general, he sees you disassociate very quickly or just staring off. Matsuda would quietly hold your hand or hug you, whichever you prefer and talk to you very softly during the whole thing.

"I am here." "Do you need something?" *very faintly runs his fingers over your knuckles and arm" "Everything is okay."

Or in a public setting if a panic attack or even a little bit of anxiety starts to settle in, Matsuda wants you to try and warn him in advance as much as you can or as soon as you can so he could help you out. You have told him how anxiety feels and it is not a fun feeling so he would do anything to try and help you out. If Matsuda could, he would take the pain away from you and have him deal with it only if it meant you didn't have to.

As you are holding Matsuda's hand, Matsuda could feel your hand ever so slightly shaking, he turns to look and watch your expressions and could see anxiety start to boil up. He immediately takes you to a quieter area and has you sit down so you don't pass out.

"Breathe along with me, okay? One, two, three, oh my goodness, you are doing so well!"

He always makes sure to buy you a sweet treat afterwards and is constantly praising you for doing a good job at keeping calm.

Feeling even scared for the future? Matsuda is there and he always switches it up.

"Hey, remember that you wanted to go to the city one day? Think about that. I will spoil you rotten that day!" "What about that new tv show you wanted to watch together? I will prepare fresh popcorn for when it comes out!" "Everything is going to be okay, hun."

Cuddles are a must. Whether you are anxious or not, it is always needed. Matsuda is a very physical person but will pull back if you are too anxious or overwhelmed, he just wants to make sure you are okay and have all of the help that you need.

"Do you need a hug? No? Or do you want me to hold your hand? Or go away completely?" He says that last part to make you laugh which works every time. He settles on sitting close by you and then you decide when you want him to hug and hold you.

But if you need a hug or cuddle in that moment then he is doing it. He will spoon you or let you lay your head in his lap as he soothes his fingers through your hair and pet your forehead, whatever you want him to do he will do.

Speaking of jokes, Matsuda will always crack a joke, when it is appropriate, to you to try and make you laugh or feel better inside from said anxiety. They mostly consist of bad dad jokes so be prepared for that.

If you especially had a hard day in general from work, thinking about the load at home can make you more anxious. Matsuda makes L let him leave home early so he could beat you home and clean the house, do any chores that need to be done and attempt to cook. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. When it does work, its a 10/10 perfect gourmet meal. And when it doesn't work, he is ordering takeout from your favorite place. Either way, the table is spread with some candles and your favorites flowers as well as your favorite alcohol or soda if you don't drink.

If you really are full of anxiety and end up shutting down, Matsuda is pampering you. He is making food for you and will feed it to you in full gentlemen fashion. And then after that he is throwing your favorite pajamas in the dryer while he runs a bath for you. Bubbles or not, it's your choice. He helps you out of your clothes softly and helps you into the tub. Matsuda chooses your favorite scented soap as he washes your back, making sure you smell nice and are clean, the soothing touch from the sponge and his beaming smile to you, helps you slowly come out of the anxiety shell. Once the bath is done, he helps you back out, dries you up with a towel and helps you into your favorite pajamas. Free cuddles all night long in bed.

Nocturnal anxiety attacks are the worst. Matsuda has told you time and time again that if you wake up with an anxiety attack then he wants you to wake him up and he won't be mad. Matsuda would never live with himself if you woke up and dealt with an anxiety attack alone. He doesn't care about the Kira case or nothing..