FTM Man-Worshipper (23yo)

Maybe I come to the party as a guest as well. But they keep giving me more alcohol until I'm pliant and limp.

First, they force me on my knees in the bathroom. The floor is already dirty and sticky from piss and the dirt of everyone's shoes. But I'm made to strip and kneel right there with my naked cunt on the dirty piss floor while they tie my hands up against the wall behind me and use me as a human urinal.

Soon, there's piss all over me and my cunt makes squelching noises on the floor when I move. People come in and don't even question why I'm there, just unzip their pants and use me how I'm meant to be. They keep pouring alcohol down my throat as well to keep me fucked up. My eyes are fluttering closed sometimes as I pass out intoxicated but the next warm stream of piss hitting my face is making me wake right up and obediently open my mouth.

When they get bored of using me as a piss pig, they hose me down and bring me into the the main area. The room is huge and packed with people dancing, talking, having fun. It is incredibly loud and the coloured lights are going crazy. I cannot even comprehend what is happening at this point.

There's a table to the side of the room and they position me there and tie my legs up to a spreader bar hanging above. My cunt is on display for everyone. My head hangs over the edge of the table and immediately someone takes advantage of my mouth hanging open and shoves their cock down my throat. I choke but they don't care, stroking themselves off through my throat.

Someone else shoves right into my pussy and I can't even get my muscles to tense I'm so drunk. They immediately start fucking me hard, making my head get shoved deeper onto the cock in my throat. I am soon filled with cum on both ends. Other guests immediately take their places and start filling me up as well, drinks still in their hands, one of them chatting to his friend while he thrusts deep and deeper inside my cunt, pushing the other's load in.

I pass out at some point but people keep fucking my limp body. When I come to again, I am covered in cum. My entire body is wet and glistening. Someone shoved a beer bottle up my cunt. There's hatchmarks on my body showing me how many loads I have taken.

Things have been snowballing for me in the gender department as I have been learning to embrace more femininity - help me keep leaning in, turn me into a pretty slut this spring and summer

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Every 5 notes - a day I keep my face clean shaven (17/103)

Every 10 notes - a day I wear light makeup (12/51)

20 notes - paint my nails lesbian pride colors (every 20 notes is + one week keeping them painted, I'll let tumblr choose the colors) ✅ (4/25)

50 notes - shave my tits (every 20 notes is a week kept shaven) ⭕ (0/25)

100 notes - shave my legs (every 50 notes after is + one week) ⭕ (0/10)

200 notes - wear a dress or skirt in public (every 100 notes after is another outing) ✅ (3/5!!)

300 notes - go bra shopping and buy a cute bra (every 100 notes is an outing wearing it) ✅ (1/5)

400 notes - get a skimpy bikini/girly bathing suit - wear this swimming all summer instead of boy trunks (once this goal is reached my fate is sealed, I'll give my old bathing suit away so I won't be tempted to hide) ✅

500 notes - cut all of my baggy boy tee-shirts into crop tops ✅ (3/7!!)

600 notes - actually give away all my testosterone so I can't get back on until at least my follow up in September ✅

700 notes - schedule an appointment to get my nipples pierced in the fall (after swim season)

800 notes - tell everyone my pronouns are they/she

I started cutting up or giving away more of my boy clothes

but I haven't worked up the gumption to start shaving my chest and legs, maybe I need to get bullied harder??

and/or send me suggestions of things to replace my 600 note milestone with

i can actually feel this working, by the way, at turning me back into a girl. my real day to day life is becoming filled with more and more girly things, because of but also outside of this notes game

I'm already detransitioning but I want to encourage myself to do it faster!!

There's no end date and spamming is encouraged!

Thank you for helping me be the girl I was born to be<3

Repeating

5: 1 day I keep my entire body shaved smooth

10: 1 day I wear makeup

15: 1 day I don't bind

20: 1 day i wear femme accessories (earrings, necklace, rings)

25: 1 day i wear panties

30: 1 day i wear panties + don't bind

35: skip 1 dose of T

40: 1 day i have to keep my nails painted

45: 1 week i do girl workouts (no arms, only legs, hips, and core)

50: 1 week i dont cut my hair

non-repeating:

10: i cut up a pair of my boxers (and send proof to anyone who asks)

20: wax myself (and send proof to anyone who asks)

25: get crossed and edge to detrans content

50: make my eyebrows even more feminine

75: sleep wearing panties for a month

100: go to the mall and buy a girly outfit and makeup

150: go buy girly toiletries and throw away my boy ones

200: post my deadname

250: post a picture of me dressed as a girl

300: edge in a public bathroom (and send proof to anyone who asks)

400: I tell my doctor i'm going off T

500: Go in public dressed as a girl (wig, makeup, femme outfit) and post proof

700: download grinder and explicitly state i'm a fake boy who's trying to detransition

800: Tell someone irl i'm "considering" detransitioning

900: Cut up my tape

1000: Change my pronouns to they/them on my irl socials

Tell me how edging and consuming porn is permanently changing how I think.

Tell me how once you’re done with me I’ll always prefer boys.

Tell me how you’d drug me to permanently reduce my intelligence and make me dependent on you.

Your friends call you a slut because a man decided to make deepfake porn of you spreading your legs at a college party

Your family kicks you out because some random man took a picture of you and wanted to jerk off to an AI version of you sucking off homeless guys.

You get fired from your job because a bunch of men online thought you were a bitch and trained AI on your “get ready with me” video and made hundreds of deepfake porn videos and leaked them online

You’re constantly dmed videos of the newest AI porn vid you starred in without your consent. A few you’re getting face fucked, a handful more you’re getting raped, plenty more cater to odd fetishes you’ve never heard of before.