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I went looking for this document after watching this tiktok.

This is under the "Community Research" category of Rainbow's Resource Hub, which is claimed to be "crowdsourced by members of the plural community with no clinical backing." At least this is clarified, but the promotion of what is inside, especially with someone with a tendency of delusional thinking, is abhorrent and dangerous.

Going into "the technique"

(I will note that the writer of this document professes that this is their own anecdotal account. They also claim to be "cisDID", which unfortunately the "cis-" and "trans-" disorder stuff does not make logical sense to me so i can't properly comment on that.) They start off with making up an alter they wish as if it were an original character, creating a simplyplural profile and their preferred system focused discord bot and selecting triggers to associate with the "soon-to-be alter" (positive triggers, but nonetheless triggers.)

Next, do this... (sorry, I have no way of putting this into my own view of it.)

(All i can say is forcing yourself to dissociate based on a trigger (and in general) is not a good idea, for the both the present and especially the future)

Then, have this "soon-to-be alter" talk about other alters, and "esp talk about YOU." This, according to the document, is to seperate you and "soon-to-be alter" and "helps w/ setting up those amnesiac and dissociative barriers" (but could sound like something a delusional narcissist would do to the idiot layman.)

While doing that step above, use subliminals... and make sure during the "manifesting" to do this (this is the part that scared me, personally, but it's not the worst of the doc):

The writer of the document goes on to give extra things those that do not have DID can do. (paraphrase)

"System Creation Guide"

Create a headspace using guided meditations with affirmations. "Write about it, draw a map of it, make lore for it, all of that."

(This tip unfortunately has a lot of things out of my comfort zone. From what I know, conabuse is a term used first in BDSM and then later was picked up by radqueers. Eitherway, it is a roleplay of abuse and not an actual traumatic experience. I would have more to say on this, but I would rather talk about things that can be properly sourced with academic backing here.)

A Tulpa (or sprul-pa) is a manifestation created through intense mental concentration and visualization practices found in traditional Tibetan Zen Buddhist practice. They are temporary mental projections made given autonomous form through sustained meditation and focused intention. Creating them is seen as an advanced spiritual practice that requires significant spiritual development and proper guidance from qualified teachers. The goals of them isn't to create permanent companions or entities, but rather to deepen understanding of consciousness and the illusory nature of perceived reality. Alters are unable to be tulpa, especially because alters are not visual manifestations you can see in the light of day. You hear them, not see them in the real world/what you see with your eyes. Tulpa's, however, can be seen alongside the real world/with your eyes as visual manifestations, and their purpose of existence is very different.

(This just sounds like promoting Factitious Disorder[1][2]... )

5. "WATCH PLURAL MEDIA. OR CHARACTERS YOU HEADCANON AS / THAT ARE CODED AS PLURAL" (I have no problems with this one, though it's unfortunate that pool is small. I will say though the reasonings behind thinking some characters can be headcanonned as plural are very off [the movie Split is a better example than raph from rottmnt "turning savage" after extreme stress and abandonment, and it isnt even good representation either.])

6. "Interact with the plural comunity" (If this wasn't for the purpose of creating a system, i wouldn't have minded this.)

7. "Avoid fake claiming yourself" so you don't "reverse your manifestation." My general advice when it comes anything about fake-claiming is talk to a professional or look for professional/academic resources about what you are worried about you are faking. Ignore social media on both sides of the isle, a random guy without credentials of what they may be talking about doesn't know your experience, and professionals that are not people you have worked with for a long time anyway often say they won't know your experience either so they can't deny what you say. I guess we are manifesting here though.

(A little nitpicky, but 1. we moved on to talking about systems, we are not on the headmates topic right now. 2. "character." I was right to think we were just making an OC? especially if we are worrying about "external-"memories and "external-"trauma. )

The Dangers

I am not a fan of this being promoted to people seeking out resources for mental health (yes its "plurality" but that still revolves around mental health.) I understand that this is seen as a "community resource" but that doesn't mean scrutiny for safety should not be involved in what you promote. The constant affirmations and manifestations can conservatively be called self-persuasion and liberally be called delusional thinking. A very similar term (or maybe the middle ground) for self-persuasion is self-deception. The 3 of the key mechanisms of self-persuasion (repetitive rumination, selective attention, and emotional investment), were all found in this document, and they can all escalate delusional thinking. No matter which it is, both/all three can cause you to harm yourself (physically, psychologically, and neurologically) and potentially others. Here are a few academic documents to read more on this if you want to look more into it for fun (at least the first one):

BBS1000135 1..56

Self-Deception (Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy)

The relationship between cognitive biases and psychological dimensions of delusions: The importance of jumping to conclusions - PubMed

Self-Deception, Delusion and the Boundaries of Folk Psychology - PMC

Delusional ideation is associated with social imagery: Felt presence, social anxiety, empathy and loneliness - ScienceDirect

My recommendation for people that think that they need to create a headmate or system as a whole is to possibly write it down your reasoning in the first place and later take it to a therapist or support group (cheaper and what i personally prefer, maybe focus on depression and anxiety focused ones if lost). You also don't need to have a disorder to have a headspace. It is just that the headspace for someone with multiple alters will function differently than one ran by one identity. And, if you genuinely need an alter, they will come... or have come already.

hi. I'm the ex girlfriend that was mentioned in those posts and I can confirm this is all very likely to be true.

mts has a horrible history of abusive behavior and doing whatever they can to keep their victims silent.

I am one of those victims.

mts has been obsessed with me for years now and we had a horrible off and on relationship that started when we were 11/12 that would go on to ruin us when we were 16.

we got a lot of shit (and by we I also mean my system because we have OSDD) from them but I can say it was nothing near as severe as to what their former partner went through.

we were bullied, harrassed, catfished and isolated from not only friends but they even reached out to our mother on an occasion in an effort to "punish" us.

when we would give anyone more attention then them, they'd split and have a meltdown and start up old drama to isolate us from anyone but them.

when we were trying to be better, they would lie to others faces and complain about us nonstop to make them think we were horrible meanwhile talking directly to our faces about how good we were doing.

they tried to catfish us on more then one occasion, the main one being the summer of 2022 where they said they were trying to "be friends" with us again and they along with their partner, and two other people played with us like we were some sort of pawn.

one of those people catfishes us as a person named Otis and made up horrible stories for us to feel empathetic towards them and try to help them. this went on for about a month and a half until I am guessing no one wanted to keep up the charade as it ended abruptly and then MTS split on us for apparently no reason and isolated us once again.

at that time the only reason we can think of this happening was because our former host grew close to not only their partner but who played 'Otis' and they no longer desired to keep it up. (this is a guess, this hasn't been confirmed.)

(they also tried to catfish us as another person named sparrow but we caught onto that quickly)

they went on to tell us everything was our fault and that we were horrible and berate us in many different ways.

we split ways for quite a while after that.

some months passed and they reached out again and we were extremely wary of them at this point. they said they were sorry and trying to do better but we held them at extreme arms length and mostly survived not talking to them because of our partner at the time.

when that ended mts immediately swooped in and tried to get us back and we did, except it wasn't for them. it was for their partner.

we had talked a bit during that summer of 22 and grown to like each other but were forced away from each other due to them. we started talking and eventually grew to have crushes on each other.

they alone convinced us to date them and mts again.

we were not in it for mts. we only liked their partner.

it was during this time we learned mts had been hitting them and abusing them whenever they didn't get their way.

we knew the depths of mts's psychological abuse as victims ourselves and because we were scared of being targeted again, we left once more.

we felt awful for leaving the partner but we couldn't go through what we had with mts before again. the suicide baiting, the horrible rumors, the mistreatment, the alters switching up constantly and never knowing who was telling the truth. everything seemed to change at will and as we grew up with time away from them we realized how much plain psychological manipulation there was.

for ages we felt horrible about leaving the partner- we still do.

during this time mts was editing their messages in our dms after we blocked them constantly. telling us how much they missed us, begging us to come back, using alters we were closest to and having then beg and plead that they would do everything to appease us. we admittedly watched this all in silence.

in the summer of last year (2024) we reached out to their partner again after hearing they had broken up. we talked and caught up and we encouraged them to kick mts out of their house bht they were understandably scared.

after this talk, we had learned right after our conversation that they had turned around and slept with them.

we went dry after that. we were disappointed and appalled and also devastated they could not see the things we saw and so desperately wanted them to get away from.

about a month later we checked the blocked messages of mts to find that they were apologizing for their partner saying they were sorry they slept with them and to forgive them and also that we should come back among other things.

we were deeply disappointed in their partner at the time as well as deeply insecure that no one would ever love us except MTS. eventually we broke and edited a reply to then saying we didn't know what to feel or think or really who we were anymore.

a lot had changed in our own system since we tore apart from them (it had been almost a year at this point) and we were feeling lost and alone.

not long after that we deleted our account so we could force ourselves to stop checking the messages and prevent ourselves from responding further.

that was all for months until we were alerted that they were going around trying to apologize about everything they had done to us. they told everyone how they messed us up and how they made us out to be horrible to everyone when we had gotten better.

they continued to try to "be better" and used us as an example of getting better and said they wanted to be like us.

about a month ago we received a dm from one of their friends requesting we read a Google document from them. it was a layered apology but also manipulation was plain as day from what we coild see now.

their "apology" contained mentions of how we'd "messed up in the past" and how they couldn't "speak for others" which they always knew made us feel horrible and used to guilt trip us constantly before along with copying padting word for word a conversation one of their hosts Finn had with our former host about talking things out before we left as we had a habit of running away. any thoughts of hearing them out went out the window at that.

there was no talking to them about anything. they'd get better for a little while before ending up right back where we started and eventually we woke up and realized that. we couldn't take it anymore and we left.

we know they have been stalking us for ages as we would get notifications from many accounts we'd have to block along with finding out they would steal our playlists on spotify by forcing their partners partner to take them for them after we had blocked them.

we have had to block many of their friends as well because of profile views and the knowledge of them stalking us.

they had our body name plastered all over their things as well at one point had our government name and face in their public profile and talked about us frequently talking about how we were their soul mate and true love. they had us in their SP multiple times and were deeply and truly obsessed with us.

they even sent mail to our house and admitted to stalking our residence on Google earth.

i cannot say what is true aside from the physical and psychological abuse of their partner and the emotional and psychological abuse of us, but there is no doubt in my mind that everything in those tweets are true.

they are horribly messed up people.

thank you for taking time to read this.

I know a bunch of people believe that MTS posted this themselves, but it's weird as hell to post your login info directly from your google account password manager. Why are you showing that there is single place that stores all this login info and likely much more. There are better ways and safer ways to admit that those were your accounts.

Most mental health recovery and rehab centers do not allow phones, so this is understandable. The also had Kandela's communications phone number and their own code in their bio for quite a while (but I sadly lost my screenshot of that).

There were no social media posts on any platform other than that specific twitter that was used during the time it states they were at Kandela. And Kandela seems to advertise themselves as off-grid.

They went back later and deleted everything and said this.

Also, if the hacker had access to the google account password manager (and the whole google account), there were likely other passwords like discord that could have been saved. Who says the hacker didn't log into the account with those credentials to look for incriminating screenshots? The screenshot also has the date in MM/DD/YYYY format, meaning the screenshot was taken at least a week after the date it was posted, being minimum March 8th and maximum March 21st. MTS would be in the hospital that whole time, and they wouldn't have been able to take that screenshot.

A video by @/horridlillies on TikTok.