Ok so this applies to both of my blogs, @straws-and-sunflowers and this blog @ask-straw-hat-luffy
And I’ve tried coming back already-I suck at that, and I sometimes post-and then disappear, and maybe nobody really cares at all if I post or not regardless of follower count..
But I want to come back, I want to draw, I want to interact, I want to do everything and anything.
When it was back earlier and I was first getting into One Piece, (Lawlu included), it was easier I think to keep up the pace. I made friends on this platform that I talked to almost daily, but people get busier, and when those people get busy the hyperfixation starts to crumble.
Not saying I’m out of OP I’m very much into it, but engagement requires constant posting so it gets sent out to other people, hence people coming to ask questions and whatnot, and engagement has always been very important to me.
Because I want to engage, but if I have no engagement then my motivation to draw dies. And I can draw for myself, but sometimes I just..want a reason to draw.
I don’t really know why I’m writing this, but I’ve been feeling bad since on my main blog, I have 300+ people following, and perhaps the 74 (much smaller, but still appreciated) on my ask blog are from that crowd, but maybe they’re not..
I just feel bad when I remember how fun it was, how active I was, and I do it a lot. On tumblr, on other platforms, I just want to engage again. But I can’t very well just be like! Spam me! Because that’s kind of…sad.
I’m just sorry I haven’t been posting much is all, I wanna make art again, it’s what I love to do-and I’m not doing anything with that.
