Torn between who I am and who I want to be

You can confide in me

Note to self and anyone else who needs this reminder:

“I like being alone. Therefore, in order to win me over, your presence has to feel better than my solitude.”

“One day, you realise that there are some people you’ll never see again. At least, not in the same way.”

“…I was interested in everything and committed to nothing.”

“I still catch myself feeling sad about things that don’t matter anymore.”

I just think life is meaningless altogether, most of the time. Yes, there is beauty in the moment, but beyond that? People come and go and you can never count on anyone, and life is just life; a mystery, and ultimately meaningless. The meaning is in the creation, and the creation is a human construct; and people just make up stuff in order to get through life.

Most people do not know how to love anymore. They don’t know how to give it, or worse, even how to receive it. They have been so hurt, that they have put up walls to protect themselves, but at the same time, these walls have shut out the people that love them. Our most basic need is that we all want and need to be loved.