WAR WORN

i know the fear is there for some, may always be there, but i’ve known that for a long time, as a mercenary. i’d like to be trusted, that’s the sort of person i aim to be, but i’m not going out of my way to change someone’s mind about me, or give up on being a good person. i think i should have specified that. of course it hurts, but i plan to let my actions speak for themselves, and if that doesn’t work for someone, then fine.

seems like people are very good at making entirely blind and incorrect assumptions with only a fraction of the full story.

i think you’re right in a few ways. i don’t doubt there’s resentment from both sides, and if it’s targeted at me rather than each other, then so be it. and i don’t doubt change is going to be difficult, but i believe it’s doable, especially when everything else is changing around it. and with a shift in leadership. if i must see the change through myself, i will. besides, i’m one of the hardest people to kill, i think i’ll be alright if things do turn out that way.

calling me a puppet is rather strong, too. i chose this position myself, i certainly wasn’t bribed or blackmailed into it. but you forget i’m a hired sword, i’m familiar with being used to sway political affairs. used to it. i don’t have any qualms with it, especially not when it’s my own choice.

where does the king keep his armies.

i won’t lose anyone. so there’s no point in entertaining this question.

i was made to keep fighting, and i have people to keep going for, purposes to serve. i won’t say i’m not getting tired, but i can’t quit.

i trust each of the golden deer with my life, frankly. which is no small thing. i want to be trustworthy for. hm. those who need someone to rely on. the church’s followers, the soldiers, my friends. maybe that’s a vague answer. but there’s no specific person or reason i want to be someone to trust.