supā share your remadora headcanons pls
i have too many, here we go!
āamused, impressed, smittenā happened so damn fast because they spent so much time together doing order work and she would come over to try and cheer up sirius a lot
they get on straight away, always laughing and joking and they flirt but itās a joke, itās a just a joke.. right?
so he was basically completely in love with her within a month
he doesnāt know it though because theyāre just friends, right? and friends think about friends all the time right? like all day? and all night? and friends canāt sleep because friends winked at them at 3pm? and friends feel their heart shatter when someone subtly teases their friend about someone that may or may not be another man? and friends secretly switch shifts around so theyāre on the same guard watch and missions together? and friends walk each other home all the time? even though itās a 40 minute walk each way and its far easier to floo but if she floos he wont get that kiss on the cheek that he thinks about the entire walk home and then regrets it because its creepy isnāt it? because sheās so young? and she doesnāt know that heāll lay in bed and think about it for hours wondering why he cares so much Ā but they are just friends
then one day heās writing her a letter, about something that doesnāt matter and is definitely something that doesnāt require a letter to be sent to her while sheās at work, but heāll find any excuse at this point. and it just hits him, he thought something to himself about how even thinking of her made his entire day and it sounds far too similar to something james had once said about lily when he was trying to explain how he knew she was the one
he panics. he panics hard. he sits for hours completely still just wondering what the fuck he can do, until he decides to write to dumbledore saying he has to leave London, he canāt face her loving someone else, he thinks he would literally explode. but he calms himself down, thereās a war, harry needs him. so he bins the letter. he knows she would never think of him like that so he feels no guilt being her friend. because theyre just friends.
and the worst part is, to her, they really are just friends. it creeps up on her slowly, rather than being hard and fast like it was for him.
so for the most part, theyre just really close friends, joking and flirting, and heās hiding the fact heās completely in love with her and she doesnāt know but sometimes looks at him a bit suspiciously at the things he does or says that are a bit too soft and a bit too caring. but he slowly becomes her best friend
the order can tell straight away, its pathetic, heās a mess around her despite them being so comfortable around each other. what they donāt see is that he literally pines for her. at 35. listening to all those songs about love knowing heāll never have it
heās badly jealous and can get quite nasty and judgemental if she has a date or talking about her exes. he used to really like bill, they get on great and heās a good laugh, but he doesnāt speak to him for 3 weeks after finding out he and tonks had a drunken night once years ago and repeatedly tells sirius heās a self-obsessed prick and hints to molly that bill needs a haircut. he used to support the montrose magpies until he found out tonks used to see the current captain, they never win anyway, remus thinks itās probably because of him
molly even sits tonks down for a strong word about ābeing careful with him and letting him down gently because none of us need a broken heart in this warā and tonks just laughs but she does start to notice what the rest of the order sees but she thinks maybe heās just got a little crush and thatās fine because maybe she thinks heās cute too? maybe
she falls for him way after he has and its not as terrifying, she doesnāt even think about it. it just sort of dawned on her one that thatās what it was, the thing they had going on, it made senseĀ
she tells her friends about this guy from herĀ āduelling teamā to secretly get advice on himĀ
they end up together about 3 months before sirius dies after 100 āalmost kissesā and cuddling in bed as āfriendsā because āthe other rooms donāt have heating charmsā and holding hands because āshe falls a lot padfoot, shut upā
thereās a fight with the death eaters and they think each other have been hit so when its finally over theyāre running and screaming for each other until they dramatically run into each otherās arms and kiss and its all very romantic until mad eye shouts āHANDS OFF MY AUROR LUPINā and they break away and grin at each other
the next few months are bliss and theyāre rarely apart, sirius moved from teasing remus about fancying her to glaring at him and giving him āthe big brother talkā. remus quickly tells him to fuck off but tonks thinks its hilarious.
tonks friend finds out about them because heās visiting her while she recovers after being really badly injured in the department of mysteries. she doesnāt take it well and starts telling tonks sheās crazy etc and tonks is like fuck off then bigot
but it reminds remus of how people see him and therefore how they will now start to see her. heād never really thought about it because he never imagined them actually being together because it seemed so unrealistic. now heās in full meltdown mode about what he could actually give her, which coincidentally, is nothing
they fight about it. they break up. remus decides to go and spy since thatās all he can offer the world. tonks is sent to guard hogsmeade/hogwarts since sheās not fit for detective duties.
he announces in a order meeting that heās leaving and thatās how she finds out. he says he has nothing to lose when someone mentions the danger. it just makes her angrier, that sheās sitting there loving him, but he says thereās nothing for him. she says she loves him when he leaves. quite angrily. and disapparates before he can react
he shows up on her doorstep less than a month later, face black and blue, filthy, teeth missing, broken bones, after being caught out. he expects her to shudder and be disgusted when she opens the door but she kisses him. she starts to clean him up when he says he had to come back to tell her he loved her, he didnāt want to die without saying it. he says it 400 times that night, he canāt stop.
he leaves the next morning while sheās asleep and doesnāt say goodbye. this is the start of the āgrief fuckingā. something happens, he comes back, kissing her, saying lifeās too short, that they need each other, he āstays the nightā, she thinks theyāll be fine but he leaves in the middle of the night every time, and she breaks all over again. he knows its not fair and promises himself that he wonāt do it next time someone dies but he does because he needs her
dumbledore told him to take something with him while heās spying that will make him feel human and keep him sane. so he takes a picture of her, heās scared heāll forget her smile. but they find it, the werewolves, and heās come back smelling of her one too many times so greyback decides heās going to teach him a lesson about running away to witches. remus finds out about it and sends word that she needs to be hidden immediately
he goes to see her to explain he needs to be completely cut off from her and she needs to deny all knowledge of him, he needs to fully be isolated from the wizarding world for this mission to work. but sheās seen what this mission has already done to him, heās a mess, physically, mentally, he talks of himself as if he is one of them, heās adopted far harsher habits and doesnāt have his usual patient personality. she doesnāt want to hide, she wants to fight them, fight for remus, fight for them, so they start to argue and heās so terrified of greyback getting her heāll do anything to get her to forget him. so when she screams ābut it doesnāt matter, if I love you and you love me-ā he turns around and screams āI DONāT LOVE YOUā Ā and he says it while looking right in her eyes and he sees the light leave her eyes and she looks down. he didnāt mean it, he was just desperate for her to understand and heās trying to take it back, trying to explain but she shouts at him to get out. he goes back to the pack to try and blend in again, hoping sheāll stay hidden
thereās an emotional wizarding condition about shock that makes your eyes, ears, nose bleed and cough up blood etc, itās pretty nasty. she gets it and gets it bad because she was so sure about their love but now sheās utterly convinced he was speaking the truth, heās a bad liar and who would ever lie about that? mad-eye finds her bleeding out in her flat soon after remus leaves, sheād started choking on her own blood and she couldnāt see, she signalled him, he takes her to st mungoās. heās been alerted by dumbledore about the situation so he knows the werewolves canāt know her whereabouts so he gets a professional wizarding copycat, whose hired to walk around hogsmeade under polyjuice as a decoy while she recovers. sheās in hospital feeling completely useless and pathetic, what kind of auror doesnāt know someoneās not in love with you? she sits for hours thinking about how disappointed mad-eye must be, how dumb she is, how every touch, every kiss, every i love you, it was all a lie. she analyses every moment they had together, convincing herself they were all fake and trying to understand what his motive was, if he was just lonely?
the pack catches the fake tonks but remus doesnāt know about mad-eyes plan so he wakes up to the pack making a riot and goes over to check it out only to see tonks screaming and being hurt and groped and attacked. he is forced to watch greyback rip out her throat while they hold him back, heās screaming and begging, then they drop her and move on to him. heās battered but not enough to kill him. once they leave him heās able to grab her and disparate to the burrow. arthur is in the garden and suddenly remus is just there with her, both covered in her blood, her throat ripped out, on the grass screaming.
the weasleys donāt know about the plan either and try to get him away from her, but he wont stop screaming and holding her and saying sorry, begging her, telling her he always loved her, that heās a liar. he cant stop thinking about the last words he said to her, āI DONāT LOVE YOU I DONāT LOVE YOU I DONāT LOVE YOUā and that she believed that. she died believing he didnāt love her and knew he and his kind were the reason she was dead. he cant take it and suddenly his wand is at his throat and he says the words as bill dives for his wand but blood splatters everywhere and he falls backwards and molly is screaming. heās managed to cut himself but not his throat, thanks to bill. he spends 2 days in percys old bedroom on suicide watch begging bill to empathise and give him his wand back, āwhat if it had been fleur? if you had killed her, billā until they switch it to charlie who remus cant even look at considering the long feud heās had with him for being on-and-off with tonks. heād once told tonks that charlie was a fucking idiot, what kind of fucking idiot would ditch her for dragons? probably the same kind that left her for werewolves
after they both find out the truth, dumbledore breaks it to him, tells him about mad-eyes plan. mad-eye is trying to explain to tonks that remus had been caught with a picture of her, that the werewolves knew he wasnāt loyal because of her, so they killed her, or so they thought. she doesnāt want to see him, it doesnāt make a difference, he doesnāt love her anyway does he? he just feels guilty. but she needs to know why he had the picture and mad-eye says if she doesnāt go to see him heāll probably break into her house, seeing the state of him. so she agrees to meet him at the burrow. heās so relieved heās openly sobbing on his knees, holding onto her and sheās thinking this is awkward and fully to do with guilt and nothing to do with love. he tries to explain how he had to say it to get her to stay away, that he was beyond desperate and she doesnāt believe him. āyou canāt look into the eyes of someone you love and say thatā and he doesnāt really have an answer, just mumbles something about life or death.
after molly tells her all the details and how distraught he had been, she rethinks and goes to see him again. they talk it out properly, not screaming for once, theyāre both too tired in this war and heās too grateful to see her with her throat intact to be angry. she tells him about being in hospital but downplays it a lot, heās still beating himself up about it until she points out she would have been caught by the werewolves if she wasnāt. they only see each other at order meetings until christmas.
he didnāt know about her patronus until harry mentioned it. he goes to see her, she is alone, but she had been working a double shift. he asks to see it and she refuses, says itās not really any of his business unless he wants to be with her, but as he explains more about it, she thinks heās realised they canāt be apart if this is true, so she shows him but it makes no difference because it was the usual āstay the night but leave again as soon as she fell asleepā situation. she turns hopeless, if her patronus isnāt enough to show him how willing she is to sacrifice things to be with him, nothing ever will be.
after the hospital wing scene they go to grimmauld place to destroy any evidence before snape lets the death eaters in. he tries to avoid her but she catches him just to say that heās right and they donāt have time to fight each other now that Dumbledore is gone, that they need to focus on the war, theyāve too much to do. he just nods but he doesnāt feel right. is that really it? shouldnāt he feel happy that sheāll be spared his life? but sheās still not happy he thinks. he sits up all night in the house they fell in love in and thinks maybe mcgonagall was right.
she goes home to sleep before the ministry spend all day interrogating her about dumbledores death tomorrow, but he wakes her up in the middle of the night, he asks to come in, she says thereās no more āgrief fucksā that she cant handle being used like that anymore. he says itās not like that, obviously sheās not going to believe him but itās different. he says he canāt go to the burrow, that he doesnāt want to intrude after what just happened. tonks lets him stay but only on the couch, and he thinks maybe he has lost her for good. heās fucked her about too much and for too long. he wonders how he can show her he wonāt leave this time.
the next few days are him trying to convince her this isnāt grief, its real and he is back for good, and her saying he just wants what he canāt have now and heāll get over it in a few days. they go about missions together because she is on suspension for failing to protect the school
theyāre on a weekend mission together away in scotland and theyāve kind of gotten cosy together again, almost like theyāre back together but he sees her doubting him constantly, like she thinks itās too good to be true and heāll leave again so she doesnāt want to get too close. so it hits him that he has to prove that this is permanent so he abruptly says āmarry meā, itās not a question. she just laughs asking if heās hit his head but heās gotten very serious and says heāll prove this is serious by marrying her, she thinks heās fucking insane and says absolutely not but they get back together and she says she trusts him. but he keeps mentioning getting married to prove heās here to stay after so many times of walking away but she keeps refusing him, saying they donāt need to, that it doesnāt matter. eventually he gets really emotional about how itās really important to him to feel secure together, that they need a solid confirmation of this thing, and she agrees and they get married two days later.
itās not a secret for long, her friend turns sides and rats them out to the death eaters,
umbridge sacks her for ābeastialityā in front of the entire auror department and she swears sheāll never work for the ministry again
the pregnancy is a mess. he leaves while sheās screaming at him saying if he leaves, thatās really the end of them, no going back, their marriage will be void. he leaves anyway. she waits all night for him, when he doesnāt return that night she waits until 3pm the next day before packing some stuff and going back to her parents, knowing that there was no going back this time.
he comes back to her parents, where they stayed after her parents were attacked, and andromeda screams and refuses to let him see her and says the flat has been sold and sheāll be out by monday so he better pack his shit and fuck off quickly. he has to plan the right moment to catch her in the flat by herself. sheās calm, terrifyingly calm for a pregnant women whose husband walked out on her, just packing boxes, telling him all his stuff is in the small amount of boxes in the livingroom, he can have that spare cauldron if he wants. he tries to talk to her about it but she keeps dismissing him, trying to ignore him, she shuts him up with ālook, i know you were scared, i know you always come back, i know that but i wont have a child sitting at the window wondering if daddy will come back this time. thatās not fair, they didnāt ask for this, i did.ā and he knows he has no argument.
she says thereās post for him on the mantle and he finds a letter addressed to him with her wedding ring in it. he canāt stop himself, heās begging her to put it back on, on his knees, half hysterical, trying to put it back on her. she says he broke his vows, theyre not together, why should she wear it but his begging gets to her and she puts it back on to shut him up but she doesnāt take it off again
he spends the next month completely doing up his fatherās old rundown cottage, complete with baby room and every method of protection he can do. he doesnāt know how to show it to her since heās seen andromeda burning his letters and only ted answers the door, so he waits in her parents back garden for hours until he catches her on her own and begs her to come see what heās been doing. she hesitates but he looks quite manic and like he hasnāt slept in weeks so she agrees just to make sure heās not lost the plot. he shows her around while sheās silent, heās talking far too quickly and looking far too frantic, as if he expects her to run out the door any second. he explains everything at lightning speed, how it is for her and the baby, its made for them, how he doesnāt have to be here, heās been staying in the spare room while he set it up but heāll be gone the second they want it, how heāll send all the money he gets, heās got bill to take out some gold for him - itās in the kitchen, how heāll get any medicine or pregnancy things she needs so she doesnāt have to leave hiding, heāll help her move in if she needs, if it is a werewolf heāll do everything, if she wants. he looks so desperate so she says sheāll think about it but she breaks down when sheās leaving, shouting that this is what she wanted for them, not just her and the baby. that it should be them living here, not just her and the baby. she moves in at the end of the month.
itās a really horrible pregnancy due to stress and inability to see a healer whenever they need. he comes home one day and sheās screaming, he finds her covered in blood. they risk getting a healer. the healer says thereās a large chance that the baby hasnāt survived. sheās hysterical, crying and screaming and hitting remus, saying he wished for this, he prayed the baby would disappear. she knows itās not true, that he loves this baby already but sheās so distraught. its andromeda that defends him, tells her shes being ridiculous, that heās done nothing but try and provide for this baby, put the baby first always. remus is grateful but still blames himself, for not being grateful for this child.
when teddys born they nearly write edward john lupin down but remus thinks its not right. every lupin baby carries john as a middle name, they always have but he wants to honour james, wants to thank harry for setting him straight, giving him the good bollocking that lily would have. so he adopts the potter tradition, of using the fathers name for the middle name. he thinks it will sound self-conceded but tonks thinks its fitting that he should have something in common with his godfather, especially if he might not get the chance to meet him. so it is edward remus lupin
I have a lot of pregnancy/teddy headcanons but this already ridiculously long so letās skip that.
they live and harry moves in with them to give the weasleys space after fred. especially since hermione now stays in rons room, thereās not much space for harry. itās great but there are postwar stresses and pumps. she finds out a lot of her friends are dead, theyre both unemployed with a small baby, werewolf legislation is still awful and then thereās charlie weasley who sends a letter essentially saying if she wanted to restart her life in romania after the war, charlie would help tonks and teddy move. remus opens it and the house is tense for a while.
I also have a lot of headcanons about charlie/tonks and remus and charlie having beef throughout ootp/hbp/postwar but we will skip just now.
they have a second son when teddy is around two. they donāt really have the money but they are both thrilled and were in a ānot trying but if it happens, it happensā mindset because neither liked being an only child and teddy is so wonderful and definitely not a werewolf. therefore alastor john lupin is born. teddy and ally donāt get on that well, both are hufflepuff and ally is a mini athletic remus, quidditch obsessed compared to music obsessed teddy. harry is godfather to both, and spoils them beyond belief.
remus eventually ends up at the ministry for a werewolf investigation unit that works with the aurors to stop packs, offering support/help to recently bitten and werewolf integration into wizarding society. he eventually gives it up to home school teddy and look after ally then goes back to teach at hogwarts a few years before the boys arrive.
tonks becomes head of the auror training division after the war and trains harry and other new aurors because she doesnāt want to be out in the field again as a mum but is too good a dueller to be stuck on desk work.
she visits remus in hogwarts one day because shes in the castle anyway and some boy shouts āsir?? is that your wife?? shes FITā and remus goes āyes youre very right mr ross, lets discuss it in Thursday detentionā. āits not his fault im hot remus, leave him beā. teddy demands his mother never return to hogwarts since his friends wont stop teasing him about how fit his mum is, ally doesnāt mind because his friends are 11 and donāt know how hot she is. remus secretly loves it.
i am so sorry for how long this is but im avoiding uni work and you gave me an excuse
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