Jun 5
today i sat in ritual & then separated my baby, my cat, Dax’s skin from her body. it is the most sacred day i’ve had the honor of experiencing.
this is the map of Her. the patterns that traced her nervous system. i have seen her face & body react, i have seen her give love & share feelings. but today i was blessed with seeing what made that happen.
the nonsensical happening of her death somehow makes sense now. looking at this feels like staring at the stars on a night so dark you can see our galaxy. She looks like mycelium, lightning, rivers. Our universe moves in infinitely complex patterns that mirror each other. to me, those ineffable patterns are god. and to see god gives me a moment of peace in a confusing world.
